Putting 2010 in its Place

A deliberate play on Marvin Z's Toolbox article Putting Failure in its Place.

Got home and was awake after the party last night. So I grabbed an article that I had printed out a while back and it had fallen out of the stack of mental training ones for some reason and looking for a Kid book I found it and put it on the stack.

I started reading it.

Things clicked.

So I wanted to go through the year and really examine what was a real failure on my part and what was completely out of my control.

The spoiler is, so much of the pain, anguish and bad stuff was really nothing I could have predicted or avoided. It was out of my control.

I started writing this yesterday, and this morning sitting here with a low thrumming headache (my brother and I had a couple beverages last night) I don't want to revisit it all.

It really wasn't a bad year, no. I mean there were plenty of bad things that happened and for the most part we managed to work through them, each one was a learning experience. Sometimes I feel like i'm not mid-way through the 40th year on this planet, I don't know how to deal with everything yet. And some stuff i screw up royally.

The beginning of the cross season my hopes of being something different than myself, faster, stronger, higher placed finisher was an unrealistic goal and set me up pretty well for failure. I've never been anything but the slowest of fast guys or the worst player on a team. For me to put any sort of self worth into athletics is pretty stupid i guess. So many other things i'm better at. My wife feels like she's carrying the family in CX season on the weekends.

Gotta figure stuff out for 2011. Re-think, re-focus, re-tool. Make it work.Take the lessons from 2010 and move forward.