now what

way back when i could write...

and write

what ever was in my head, it didn't matter who read it, but i had a chance to write it, and sort shit out in my head

now, not so much

not really a good thing but it is what it is.

i'm old now. responsibilities have changed.

racing season is over, as slow as I am i really still want to be in Louisville right now. so what if I don't make the heat.

i wanted to be in Madison too.  but hey  i don't have mud tires, i have the antithesis of mud tires. so yeah. i would have sucked extra.  it attenuates the desire but doesn't remove it completely.

worlds.

sure - i would be a first heat participant most likely.  such a tiny chance of actually making it to the main heat.

i see so many who are saying "fuck that season was long, i'm done."

i'm not feeling that now, but my season is done.

now what

guarded words

working on a sinus infection to add to it all

winter is slowly getting here

now what