That seems weird... but then i guess having 358.9 miles (no i'm not going out to get the last 1.1 tonight although I should... hmm nope all done) in a 5 day stretch, and weeks are M-Sun so I still have two more days to get 100 miles more than the initial goal for this week, aka hit 400. Dawn patrol tomorrow should get some of the way there, and then the #everydayinmay on sunday should polish it up.
The ride home tonight was weird. Super melancholic... could be the loneliness is getting to me, esp after the ride with Brent and Justin this morning up to Tower Hill and back. Maybe the riding alone has keyed me into how nice it is to ride with others. But then if I didn't ride alone I wouldn't ride much, nor would I appreciate company as much as I do. I need to ride alone though. Maybe not this much, but it fulfills something somehow.
Talking with Brent and Justin we agreed, we ride bikes because we love riding bikes. If we didn't like riding alone we'd never ride nearly enough to have as much fun riding with others.
Ya know what I mean?
Perhaps you do if you're still reading this bullshit I'm tossing up on this digital space after all these years...
I think maybe I've ID'd the other reason for the aura, but I'm not sure I like it, or am willing to give the feeling the recognition of being written down. Perhaps letting it drift off as I pedal tomorrow morning, alone, will work.
Also, man I am tired. Maybe that waking up at 5am after making sure I had kit that wasn't salt stained or stinky to wear to the public bike to work day event thing.
Gotta get dinner made for everyone now, yeah a little late but it is in progress, a pause while stuff cooks, and writing gives me a chance to sit down... then after dinner maybe shower and then sleep... maybe...
one thing I just thought of that hadn't really sunk in... I turned in the final grades for the class... it is over... till next time but, despite kind of being over in the time demand stage, it hadn't really ended, more of a slow fade, like being ghosted, suddenly, wait where did you go? I'm sure it is just one extra unrecognized layer to this feeling. Been riding enough to keep my mind distracted until I actually went and physically submitted them and one of my students found me in my office today.
Can't even find a pandora station to fit this groove i'm in... nothing is resonating properly...
Dinner'll be good though. If I ever finish cooking... like my riding, sometimes I cook slower than most. Infuse more flavor that way i suppose, make sure nothings rushed, get the seasoning right.
Best shut up and post it and move on to the rest of the stuff on the agenda... and like this bike in this 'gram, that literally can't stop/won't stop... such is the life and the choices I've made.
heddwch
G
No comments:
Post a Comment