to recap

I had a terrible night's sleep, still haunted by dreams/nightmares, I'm feeling over-whelmed, hungry (even having eating breakfast and lunch - yeah still hungry), busy, but tonight's the opening...

Scared, unsure, am i too old to be trying to do this shit...  every doubt and insecurity seems to be enhanced right now... 

not the best thing...

on the other side, i'm doing better at coping with this mindset...

yes, i just want to crawl under my desk and hide until tomorrow... disappear, go away and come back when it is over...  not the correct action but it is not as powerful as it once was... no need for chemical bravery... probably have had too much coffee today, see point number one above.

okay - this was better as a semi cryptic blog post than an even stranger tweet

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