wings eh?

So, yeah I'm a coffee guy. I drink way toooooooo much as it is.

But it is just coffee. No sugar, no soda, no nothing. 

I have a bad reaction to sugar alcohols (xylitol, sortbitol, stevia that shit) can't stand it esp in sports drinks.

point? well the women driving the little red bull mini dropped of a couple cases of the sugar free Red Bull.

I stopped in to build a few bikes on Wed, was dragging. I haven't had a red bull since I had a blue one, turns out a blue one plus alcohol is like giving me a roofie, I kind of black out and have strange out of body weirdness. Before the blue stuff I'd had a handful of the regular sugared ones before CX races now and then. Never seemed to do much. But I always thought they tasted ok, a bit fake but no objectionable but distinctive enough to imprint. Lots of money making that chemical cocktail.

So a couple cases of sugar free - i grab a can and look at the ingredients...  sweetened with aspartame. It breaks down into a couple amino acids and some methanol. Methanol is bad but also easily managed by the body in those quantities (it is in normal foods at similar levels at times). Hmm...

Well I crack one open. Not expecting much. But I was tired, hungry, had a pile of coffee and wound up with the most productive after work build session and I felt mentally good. Like that shit actually gave me wings. And I liked it.

I grabbed a couple. Had a few at the end of the day yesterday, same thing. DAMN, I LIKE THIS. Then the back of my mind, that over thinking self aware, hyper critical analysis kicked in. Oh. Shit. I recognise this pathway. Fuck.

Stopped at the shop again on the way home. Had a couple, not the same level as the first day but i can feel the habit side of my brain kicking into overdrive. I can see the "I NEED SOME" feedback loop developing. And then of course there is the extra caffeine. Sleep has been a bit disrupted.

But it feels good man!

Chemicals, fucking chemicals.

At least it isn't an endless supply at the shop, i'm too cheap to go out and buy it, but the bottom line is coffee doesn't do much beyond keep the headaches away.

Maybe that's the summer project. Taper back, work on not relying so much on so much coffee to be functional. At the same time it requires sleeping to catch up. A catch-22 that takes quite a bit more time and flexibility than I have.

And hey Tim Johnson and Ellen Noble are RedBull athletes...  support them, or something right? Can't be all bad. Can it? Yes yes it can. No wonder my brother digs all those sugar free monstery like energy drinks. They work when your system is tapped out by everything else.

I'm still not going for the blue ones... or buying them... 

Have been on the Crockett exclusively though, other than smackdown. Unfortunately I think I may need new tires before the C2C in michigan...  getting some sidewall checking on the Riddler up front and the accompanying sealant leakage through it.

Should it be fine? Maybe but I don't want to be scrambling at the last minute looking for decent fat tires that will deal with the sand out there. Just one more thing to add to the list.

Finished Tiamat's Wrath. Good fucking book. Such good storytelling. At least to me. I enjoy reading it. The endings always feel rushed, so much development building up to the rapid fire happenings. And still no good clean ending to the series of course.

Jumping into the second book "A bad deal for the whole galaxy" in the Salvagers series. Good story and fun reading. Not super cerebral but entertaining and a cool universe with good visuals.

Reading Tiamat's after having watched the Expanse series I still didn't quite put everyone's face from the cast in the book but pretty close. Bobbie for certain but then maybe I have a bit of a fan crush on Frankie Adams. And while a spoiler (skip to the end of the paragraph if you want) goddamn Amos being immortal now is cool, he practically was before. The set up could have been better but it was still kind of relaxing reading about his skull getting blown half off and the rest of the injuries knowing he'd survive.

Okay this weekend is going to be crazy, going to try and get in the hundo on Monday. Big reservation with the plan is the high use on some of the planned routes, but well that's probably not going to be too bad but will be different than a mid-week recon.

Time to get working on wrapping the house up. Then read till enough of the redbull and coffee wears off so I can pass out.

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