Gathering clouds

I can feel them. New bike and the ride has worn off, feeling on edge, near a void...

Strange, good one moment, horrible the next, little stuff building..

Creak in the new bike today. Not under load, not out of the saddle, irregular, not a good creak sound.

Not doing smackdown was the correct call but brought up emotions and sadness esp with one of the people that liked syl's post about it on FB. Yeah yeah forget that place. I do, and then something like that sneaks in the periphery.

Actually thinking about the Freetown 50. Crazy? Yup. But there aren't any cx races close enough... And that just sounds fun. Also there's a Clydesdale category. Good for cx? Nope. Fun? Maybe.

Tired but not. Swyping instead of typing, typing is loud, swype is not...

Many feelings of failing lately, lost, rush from Sunday is gone.

Friday looking at the ride, well that is going to be a tough day, but don't really have a choice, can't not do it, can't/don't want to do it on the e bike. Cx bike? Yeah probably...

Hitting publish, should edit/read it but no..

Will deal with it in the morning.

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