This just keeps getting worse, and worse, and worse.
Fucking hell.
I checked into twitter, STUPID bad timing.
I really don't know what to think.
only feel angry and sad
can't remember if i had read thirteen or not, so while waiting for a few things to come off hold i started to listen. i hate being patient while the plot jumps around and everything connects. but i also hope that the jumping around is chronological, while sometimes that is fun to read I don't have the mental headspace for that right now.
need an escape not a challenge. life is a challenge, work is a challenge, i want to escape into a book. better than escaping other places.
need another day off, another day blissfully away from the world, focusing on what I can control, what i have influence on.
Stevil's post today reminded me of what was drilled into us: there's no such thing as an unhealthy environment. The earth really doesn't fucking care. If it doesn't support life now, give it time, it'll figure it out, we can't really do anything. This blip of insanity in the history of man is pretty small, a culmination of 200 years of bullshit? Or a continuation of it. A turning point or just another inflection.
Time will tell.
i feel a little better, but not much, gonna escape into the audiobook a bit more before bed. might need to up the speed a bit 1.4 x is feeling too slow.
heddwch
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