feeling adrift

 But not totally? 

Maybe it started with the olives, and the trigger about who hates them. I like them. But there are bad olives and the difference between the chemically doped black olives in a can from most producers and the black olives in the 365 cans that don't have that one thing in there are different, texture and flavor, and yeah the 365 ones aren't black - duh that chemical makes em look different. Ah well. 

Then a few more triggers or maybe they are detachment, clipping the guidewires.

Maybe they are self healing nanowires but well, once clipped take time to re-grown and establish control again.

Maybe I've been reading too much sci-fi. Is that possible? 

Listening to too much Opera? Nah. La Boheme, 1977 production, introduced by Tony Randall, with Pavarotti and Scotto. Fucking unbelievable. Seriously so good.

clicking through the open tabs I re-visited a bit on one that I wish would change but doesn't: http://www.teachingcancertocry.com/ 

it is more of a physical reminder of Ezra, a tie that connected those first years of Flickr, bikes, michigan and RI that is not there anymore. His food films? Fucking solid Like this one....  https://vimeo.com/19271094

I can embed it...

There

aztec soup from Fast Boy on Vimeo.

That's better.

I had a direction in mind. Got lost in the process. Probably more missing nanowires than i'm aware of.

That big microburst storm that blew through Wed night? Knocked down more branches and trees than the Hurricane that knocked out our power or any other storm in while. The bike path was blocked in 4 locations. Someone had come through and hit the first three with a chainsaw. So last night I pulled out the beer truck, hooked up the trailer and went and gathered what I could pick up and put in the trailer. Two trips. Couple days of heating the house in the dead of winter. Next year. this is green, needs seasoning but I've got enough to get through a few good cold spells for this winter. 

Ordered a Nordic Pocket Saw today. With that and some extra work, I can collect even more of this stuff  before the big tree trucks come along and stick the whole tree in the chipper. And I'll have it for the MTB rides when the hand saw is too small.

I keep thinking about bikes, well that's obvious, but now I'm referring specifically to acquiring new ones. Like I really should sell the Crossrip+ and replace it with a Madone SL6. Of course I'd need to sell the Ultegra crankset, and replace it with some 180 D-A ones. Sure the SLR would be super fab but that's more money, a lot more. Other brand? Meh not as good of a deal. A kindhuman would be fun but WAY too small. Need to have an XXL at least. And they don't. And then I think about full suspension, and gears and stuff. 

And then I'm remembering MTB riding when you're going fast is very much like rally driving. The co-driver is calling out stuff one and two things ahead of where you actually are. Your eyes on the bike kind of do that, or should be. I found myself looking three obstacles ahead or more - cataloging current space and the line with the next but looking forward for the set up. 

I'm a bit frustrated with my slowness in the first section of Dirt smackdown in the Hunt's mills stuff, but those big fat gravel tires with extra air pressure don't feel quite right or I'm just too big to try and turn and then the speed I take puts me just under optimal cadence out of the turns with the singlespeed. Change tires, change cogs, put gears on... lots of options, or I can just try and push it until I figure it out and can overcome whatever the limitation is.

But the looking ahead - ignoring what's right under the wheel and focusing on linking it all together.

Riding the Mt Bike brings me joy, even when it is a struggle, or i'm crashing on my head, there's still endless stoke and that tells me there's no need for another bike. Fewer choices are good. No agonizing, Oh i should have ridden that bike today...  there is only one bike, and mine happens to be in the wrong gear most all the time.

and i really like riding it

getting close to the time to head home

wrapping up the week - not quite getting everything done I was planning on, lots of extra "WHAT IS WRONG" taking up all the time. 

be well - cook good food - be kind - share the stoke

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