Not feeling the effects of this time of year until last night.
Slept well until 4:30am, started to fall back asleep at 6am when the alarm was about to go off so I just got up instead of drifting back to sleep.
No idea on tomorrow. Not even backup plan for the back up plan.
Fizzle hard. And that hit yesterday evening pretty solidly.
Just don't know. I had motivation at times to ride to Boston, right now there's good reason but the other side of things, riding there alone? Tomorrow? nope. Sometimes I wish I could figure out my motivation and solve it and know what i want to do in a specific enough sense that I could just do it.
No vehicle so off road adventures are all from the house, I guess I could ride to Village Park... that's a longish way on the soft compound tires on the Top Fuel, or a really annoyingly long and slow pedal on the Singlespeed.
The ice cream hundo still sounds a bit enticing. But not quite sure where to go, Ice Cream Barn and Ice Cream Machine would work, combined that's a 60+ mile ride. But ice cream alone seems even sadder than not doing the ride.
Maybe this tiredness is something else. The nameless something else.
But whatever happens tomorrow is tomorrow and I need to figure out how to make it not what it is and what it could be. Would be nice if it was as easy as flipping a switch.
maybe i just need to stay home and in bed and watch TV or something totally useless and forget the bike ride...
just fucking struggling as usual. no big deal. it'll pass.
maybe i'll find time today to write up the 24HOGG before I forget it all, or maybe I just leave it all unspoken, and just the skeleton of documentation?
dunno
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