Yeah about that.
Guess it wasn't fully healed and now it is way worse than it was.
Like WAY worse.
And it isn't knee as much as calf, that medial side of the gastrocnemius is pretty messed up on my right leg. Crosstobeerfest was Wed.
44-19 is the perfect gear, for sure, for me, right now.
19t cog from a cassette is a REALLY bad stand alone singlespeed cog. If you have a tensioner to guide the chain it might work, but straight up singlespeed? NOPE. Mayo calls it Presto-Change-O gear choice.
It likes to shift off at every bump or high cadence opportunity. or when you're just coasting and start pedaling.
Discovered that first on the way to get the car from the dealer. Massive issue driving home from CT. Anxiety spike through the roof, but the car made it home. Dealer fixed it no charge on Tuesday.
But Tuesday afternoon was spent calling, texting, DM'n everyone locally looking for a 19t SS cog.
Donny Green had one and brought it to the race Wed. All the PVD shops had all the cogs other than 19, just no 19s.
But to the point of the start.
Well bike sorted. Car sorted. 44-19 feels really good. Like just tall enough and not too tall. A little stronger maybe fitter and I could maybe turn a 44-18 like Jake Wells but the 19 for me? It is good.
But what's not good... is that thiing that happened on the big ride with Greg.
Everything was pretty okay doing pre-ride. Felt a little sore pre-ride but could hop okay, could do barriers not to badly.
Course felt good,
got a good enough start that i wasn't in a scrum at the barriers and was able to go fast and the first push off with my right leg hurt a lot, def something said "Oh Fuck No" and maybe not torn but strained badly. The pedaling was fine. Fortunately. Got over the logs okay the first time, thought, maybe I should hop the finish line log, did that and it felt like someone put an ice-pick in to the top of the calf near the knee. Well fuck that's not good either, but pedaling felt REALLY good.
It was dark, had the Wahoo on with the LED HR display. It dropped to orange in the twisty on the first few laps, mostly because traffic was going slower than I could and I couldn't pass w/o running and well no I can't run.
took a few laps to realized that if I kept my knees bent and kind of hopped or used the bike as a crutch and never planted my right leg I could move at not the slowest pace.
But odd thing happened, I started pushing the HR up into the full red, and it was staying there and I wasn't fading. WTF?
Was racing people around me, was reeling Jason B in, had Colin R closing in on me (he made a final last lap pass when I was hobbling over the barriers), and Ossa trying to catch me, and played tag with Robert Mayer and it was just fucking strange.
I was racing, full gas the whole fucking race, and then the timing got fucked up and they made everyone do two 2 laps to go laps, and I was thinking i'm getting lapped but I didn't get lapped, what the actual fuck, and while one less lap would have been good for my leg, the hopping running part, the pedaling part of the legs and lungs and heart all were totally good. HR was highest for the last three laps and I didn't fade speed wise.
If you have been watching GeWilli race, he's probably not done that since Plymouth 2013.
And now i can't walk.
Well I can walk but it fucking hurt and I have to keep my heel elevated.
I can pedal, but wound up in a really really deep puddle without quite enough speed and instead of pushing the pedals ankle deep into the water I veered over to the side and tried to put my right leg out. Well I did but it fucking hurt.
Emergency foot down stuff is not good. Aka i think while MTB might be fine any hopping isn't going to work and if I have to put a foot down I'm gonna go down in a heap of pain.
So no Hale MTB race on Sunday. No CX.
Have a Dr appointment on Monday, hoping to have an idea of what the fuck is going on then, but till then I think I have to rest and I am more frustrated about this than I've been since I crashed and destroyed my sub patellar bursa the Monday before thanksgiving 2013.
Last year my back totally fucked me over, this year? One errant and bad footing, running up a hill chasing greg and the rest who were pedaling their low ass gravel gears up a hill, and what?
Who knows?
CX Nats is here in New England, well kind of, Hartford is CT and that's not really New England but close enough... and who knows how long this is going to take to heal.
12ish days wasn't enough to heal, and now it is worse and the clock resets for how long?
FUUUUUUUUCK
I know I know, "It could always be worse"
it has been worse, it will probably be worse again, right now though? It is really tough and I'm having a hard time dealing with it.
Anyone wanna ride on the road?
Fuck
heddwch
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