Leveling off?

 Maybe, hard to tell what altitude... not crashed on the ground, not soaring over the clouds in perpetual sunlight.

Scanned the rest of the negatives. 

There's a bunch getting posted all over the place. 

Some photos I really like. Some just feel like just not quite there. can't tell if it is the film, the camera, the processing, or what. But on the whole, there's a huge satisfaction and beauty that isn't found in the crisp digital super shots. 

capturing the photons in silver vs silicon. 

So magnificently different.

It was a little cold this morning. Temp was 30°F this morning. Currently 19°F and dropping. The wind is howling. Riding into that bitter wind was kind of more intense than it has been in a while. Still kind of really didn't make any concessions to the cold. I did pack an extra top layer and winter gloves for the ride home. But just wearing the XC-3 shoes. Summer shoes, yeah. The 45 min ride in had my toes a tiny bit cold. Figured the ride home should be okay with the tailwind and the reduced time on the bike. Assuming I can get out of here before it gets dark. Should be possible.

The week compressed a bit, I did get time on the big MML scanner, there's a whole post to write about my first time using a Mac in a million years. Literally, like foreign shit. What the hell. 

The only saving grace is that shit really hasn't changed much since the Mac 512k. Finder and all that bullshit. Same as same old. I did remember the key shortcut for Levels in Photoshop, not Ctrl+L, but still L. Y'all Mac people are weird. I don't get it. It is like you want to be divorced and separated from the physical set of data. Like to pretend it isn't really there or isn't anything of substance. I don't know if that's quite right but there's always the untouchable backbone behind the curtain difference between that and the 'PC' stuff. Windows isn't the whole answer, and the Linux i've played with is even more reduced and somewhat more intuitive than the Mac stuff but here we are and I managed to sit down alone, myself w/o help or guidance and get the scanner software working and edited all the images in Photoshop.

The negatives were too curled, they were dirty or scratched, haven't checked to see which, it is a good workflow and reminder. Cleaning the lens off isn't the only thing to pay attention to. May need to look into glass sandwiches for the negatives but next roll I'll work hard to press and get flat before scanning.

But the next roll, not quite half way, but perhaps soon. Maybe shoot a few photos/portraits if I make it to the Worlds CX party tomorrow. 

Trying to get through that next Reacher book. The E Bear's first book is picking up speed but too tired to read and getting to bed too late to spend time reading. Maybe this weekend I'll get to it. Problem is the Reacher book is cranking overtime in my head, not getting through it fast enough and I kept filling in the blanks thinking about what was next, predicting, trying to follow it. Listening at 1.75 speed tho. I think this book the narrator switched to someone even slower, def fewer vocal changes while voicing different characters. Need to finish it up to move on. At least you know Reacher survives, there's another book. I don't like how these books teach me not to care, sure they are just killing characters and tormenting fictional people, but I don't like it still, crazy thing to admit I suppose. But then you can extrapolate to actual real events and maybe understand why I try to avoid the current news as much as possible, the incredulity of people's behavior, are they really that cruel? That insensitive? Mind boggling. 

Been listening to a lot of French stuff, Stromae and OrelSan, Bigflo & Oli...  somehow youtube threw Pink's new song #trustfal in the mix, not made at it, 

The words to that song are kind of actually on point for lots of things for me, for lots of people I suppose, the fear of doing something, putting it off, avoiding it, and then just doing it and moving on.

A friend brought up their fear of public speaking, this is a successful fabulously accomplished person, yet there. Something I could give two shits about, I'd rather stand up and speak in front of a crowd than have to be social and interactive in the same group of strangers in a mixer.

Strange how differences amplify and clarify but maybe just serve as a reminder that somethings you find incredibly easy others find impossible and daunting and paralyzing. Be kind when someone struggles at something you don't even think about, they may have a super power you could use but can't see in the moment.

On the list is to dump all the open tabs of shit I read on the phone to here and close them all and start over before too long. 

But reading other stuff - here - go read this: https://geo-snelling.medium.com/start-pulling-your-weight-again-15ffc225ca6d 

To see the rest of the critically selected film shots head here: https://grainery.app/u/gewilli  The rest probably will get tossed up on IG (click somewhere on this page, maybe in Desktop view only) I've even started posting over on faceplace again a little. Mostly just for a few people that aren't anywhere else. 

It has been a rough week, but I've gotten through it and managed to squeeze a few bursts of hyper-productivity between the blahs and haven't drifted too far behind. 

Should ride home soon, before it gets too much colder. Down to 17°F now (-8ish°C) and the wind is cranking at 15-20mph steady with gusts being reported close to 40mph.

That's windy.

Tailwindy though.

Till next time,

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