unexpected

I don't always watch movies mid week but sometimes we do and usually they get split up. Somehow I latched on to the accountant. We started it yesterday.

Finished tonight. And the instant Sean Lowe started singing I lost it. Subtly on the outside but very significantly on the inside. 

Nah didn't have much to do with the film, but maybe a little. More to do with the lyrics and listening to them, in refection about my dad. About life. Leaving something behind. 

The lyrics are just so good. I think so. You night think they are garage or trite or whatever. But to me. They've good some heavy meaning. That and I listen to it over and over. 

It's been a tough couple days. Today was ok, but it also wasn't great. I did get one roll scanned. Two to go. We'll see if I can get through them tomorrow, or at least one. Maybe start prepping a few to share. Goal is always to edit as little as possible, and while I'm not scanning them at the max pixel density, it's still nearly 100MB each. A bit large for social media. Plus I gotta get that white border around it.

Might need to print a few and mail them to the folks in the west. I'm not ready to set up the enlarger and get into the whole paper side of things.

It's a big weekend coming up. Constant reminder of the stress five years ago that drove me to my last and maybe biggest bender, longest one at least. I doubt I'd be alive today if I hadn't stopped drinking. Biggest odds would have been going the way Robin Williams or Anthony Bourdain... Next, almost that but unintentionally. I don't think about that much anyone. Part of not doing the what if game.. usually that's played with regrets and missed opportunities. It's easier not to what if the demonstratively very few good choices. And to think, it took sobering up to finally get a modern MTB. So glad I did 

I suppose, given how little coffee I've had today that I should go to sleep. The morning will be here soon and there's a hell of a lot to do tomorrow. Kind of hungry tho. But then I ate too much yesterday thinking I was going to do smackdown. 

Alright, be kind, do some good, be nice to people. You know. Don't be a dickhead.

Listen to Frank Turner.

And always sing along when you know the words.

Amor Fati Motherfuckers

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