Dunno, time has lost all meaning, my back is a complete wreck from resting, no chairs are comfortable, bed isn't comfortable, nothing feels good. But maybe I feel a little better?
Putting big question mark on Thursday night's TT. As in unless I wake up feeling absolutely perfect after a good night sleep tomorrow morning I think it would be a bad move to try and do it. Maybe if I drive out? Dunno. Def not going to have the new bike ready even if the rings get to the shop today, but maybe that will play into it all and the rings won't get there till thursday or Friday and I'll just have to make due with Next week as a debut. and then... shit then what? France?
Last night, or yesterday, i dunno which brief spell of being awake and unable to sleep it happened, too many of all of them, not enough good long sleep, I had this idea of finding/composing a still life/subject and going through the new camera (that has also been languishing unused as I'm trying to get better) first up an ISO bracket of the same photos, maybe start with 200 and go on up? Then maybe work on an F stop bracket comparison, will have to figure out aperture priority, then I guess next logical one would be shutter speed but that seems less informative, lot of crossover with the first two. But all that requires being in a creative enough headspace and being able to see, not easy to do when all you want to do is see the back of the eyelids comfortably and sleep well. Maybe I'll manage to take a nap and feel up to it afterwards. Also thought, maybe it was this morning, that I should work on some pick drills on the erg, get started with form with the side goal of being able to erg properly like a rower, not some crossfit gorilla, and strengthen the back in a way it doesn't get activated on the bike. Maybe it'll make resting like I've had to do easier. And MAYBE I'll get smart enough to know when to reel it back in and not get so strung out. (I feel like I've been saying this for a long long time with no good move to a resolution). Something's gotta give. Not sure what.
Drinking more than two small cups of coffee so far today has helped a little. I'm not sure how much of yesterday's headache and pain was from withdrawal or from the fever. Probably a little of both. And yeah I'm stubborn and probably stupid but I wanted to let the fever rage instead of tamp it down with tylenol or something else, body is using it to fight, let it fight, come on body, lets get control back.
Time at the computer is about used up, need to change positions (back) and eat more food (hungry), and close it up before I get replies to all the emails I just sent out.
Yeah I'm working (not much but still am) while I'm on sick leave. shocking.
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