F5 the weather

 On endless repeat.

There was hope a few days ago. Now?

Looks like it was good to go fully and totally into the well of reserves and push past yesterday on the mt bike.

Because Tuesday looks like a washout.

But worse? Wednesday looks shitty too.

Like, what the fuck am I supposed to do, level shitty.

And of COURSE it is bugging me and i'm already moody and depressed about it

Like, when the whole day for the past 12 years has been focused around riding all day... I guess I should be positive and say hey, in the last 12 years you've had great weather or had other complications that kept you off the bike (department retreat where i was at a big party but no one said happy birthday, you'd think they'd make a point of knowing when employee birthdays were).

BUT I KNOW I SHOULD BE FINE WITH IT RAINING BUT FUCKING HELL 

And yeah, honestly I'm thinking fuck it just go ride MTB slowly alone in the woods, in the rain, till I'm tired and then come home. 

Dunno what to do honestly. Kind of hung up on the age mileage, thing, 50+ in the dirt, 100+ on the road, but I guess, fuck it i could wake up take it easy, load up and go ride in the rain. Maybe park in the middle of BR like at Hopkins hill and do all the trails on one side and the other and have a spot to refuel. Carry two bottles and just ride. Maybe the Singlespeed? I don't know. Really not keen on riding alone, but woods in the rain is better than road in the rain, and the woods and trails I know best are pretty much unaffected by rain, if not better (more difficult to ride).

I just don't fucking know.

And now it is impacting my productivity. I'm a distracted mess.

Maybe I should just take the whole week off.

Except I can't, well I could but it would fuck way too much shit up for me to okay with. Although I'm not sure why I can't just be okay with it. 

And no. Doing the ride the day after on the 31st when it is all clear (and windy as fuck) isn't the same.

Guess I'll got back to F5'n the weather and try to get through all this shit to do.

I KNOW I KNOW 

AMOR FATI MOTHERFUCKER

but still

le sigh

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