Wednesday already? WHAT?

So after that big old post, the post Squirrel race one, that I rambled and hung my soul on the line to dry for all to see.

Well...  I kind of left it up there and haven't written anything... here (critical writing stuff in other places though)

Sunday I woke up feeling absolutely completely mowed over. More fatigued than ever. So tired that I had to sit here for a while to just remember what I did. Nothing. Luggage. Got back in bed for a while (couldn't sleep) got up but just couldn't get out of my own way. So. Tired.  Too tired to go shopping or get out of the house, so I didn't. I didn't do anyway. Monday felt only a little better and I figured if some people get fast by not riding much and completely recovering, well i'll just drive to work.

Only it took probably longer because I couldn't find parking, and then still had to move the car. But it wasn't pedaling and it was a break, got some shopping done, got home and made some dinner.

I've been working on this proposal, last bit is the brief statement. You'd think I'd have had enough practice putting words together to where it would be easy, yeah nope, been rolling around bits and phrases and ideas for a long time. Stack of hand written paragraphs, four or five versions of the proposal.

But I think maybe I have it where I want  it, or at least where I think, while not perfect or brilliant, at least the critical elements and ideas are there. Heck i'm trying to be an visual artist, not some writer or something.  Writing is difficult, throwing stuff up here is not writing, it is sharing and is kind of the introverted way of talking to people without talking to people.

Tuesday was the first day commuting with the garmin and the HRM, took it easy on the way in, couldn't really see shit on the way home and it was pouring fucking rain and amazingly windy on the way home, so it wasn't so much a 'training' event as this is fun as SHIT.

This morning I still felt tired but used running late as an excuse to go faster than a snails pace.

The whole hooking the thing up and uploading is a pain but honestly not really any more annoying than trying to use my Phone to upload a strava thing. Easier almost, and my phone isn't dead once I get to work. Hmm funny how that works. Eh?

Going to help with course set up Friday, may not get much/if any riding in Friday. Saturday I'll be a the race but I'm not racing at that forsaken hour. Sunday though? RI State Champs? Yeah I'm gonna race. Kind of have to. But maybe enough of the locals in my age group will show up and I'll make this year one of the first w/o a medal. Or maybe this low mileage week and not racing Saturday will give me some legs? Probably not. Why not? Well because, I realized riding in this morning that outside of races, I've pretty much had zero max intensity since the Smackdown stopped. No intervals, no tuesday night trainer sessions, no wonder. Not that they helped that much last year but at least I was a wee bit faster last year. Hey, it is what it is. I'm just happy to be able to ride and race. Honestly.

Weather should be clearing up, I was going to get out and run an errand on the bike before the rains came in but, oops, too late now. Was editing the words and re-reading, re-working them and lost track of time.

Sort of like what happened with this post.

Got writing, took a break, finished the submission and agonized over the order and impact of fewer words than this phrase contained, and send it all off. Submitted to the Staff Art show here at work. One more big proposal to get out the door (not until first week of January) and I can get back to important shit.

Also hit me like a ton of bricks, I don't have any images to take to Seattle for the concerts like last year. The audience didn't buy a ton of them but I did sell more than a few, but there's kind of like pretty much zero time between now and then to do it. TOO MUCH GOING ON! I NEED MORE OF ME (or help, but that's not gonna happen, either help or another one of me).  ALSO HOW DO I DECIDE WHAT IMAGE TO PRINT. Can't do one series that I just submitted, Colorado one isn't ready yet. Ooh maybe just the oddballs, some of the beer, the horsetail, the other plant stuff.

Percolating makes shitty coffee, but is good for brain to sift through ideas and go from the next thing and turn it over and over again until something falls into place...

Dark and raining.

And I really need to get fenders and the SSCX bike sorted and set up as the winter commuter. Dry feet and simple drive train and brakes that work would REALLY be nice. The Black Blue's canti's are in the CAN'T STOP WON'T STOP ESP WHEN WET phase. Slow down? Yes, honk loudly in the rear when dry (pedestrian warning system), but stop? HAHAHAHAH.

Best get out and play in the rain again. At least the wind isn't so crazy today.

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