blindsided

by one of the most empathetic, intelligent and quietly intense students just now. Enough so that i'm putting off eating lunch to get the emotions out of me. Why? Not sure.

It was just so random but so nice, they were here with their new S.O. their life changed dramatically a while back when the marriage right out of college ended. High school sweethearts that went to the same university drifted apart as one did law school and the other tried to make it work.

Life is a strange path.

They made an observation about my describing the next week or so, they said I say it all with such dread and weight. It is a good point. But I still haven't gotten the car inspected, and may not get that done before I get back from Seattle. And that will have to be okay, won't it. Accept it GeWilli, stop stressing about it. Let that shit go, 'you got this'

And then there's the whole new phone anxiety. Also no need for it to be there, just more me making it bigger than it should. But then deciding what to do is paralyzing. To take advantage of the cyber monday deals of which they seem to be the same as the black friday ones and maybe that means they are just normal deals, but then if I wait until tomorrow and the deal goes away then what. Phone works, but kind of randomly dies somewhere south of 50%, usually around 39 and when activating both processor and other heavy electron use functions. AKA it shuts off and unless I have a power source on hand it is dead. Not the best for functioning. I had the reliance but use it for everything. The pixel 3a and the 4 (not the XLs) are the only two i'm considering. I guess I could look for a 3 or a 2, used/preowned but the cost difference is marginal compared to the 3a and the 4 is so much better. This original one has worked really well. Battery guys won't touch it - OLED screen has to be removed to get to the battery and too much of a risk of breaking it.

So yeah - these things shouldn't occupy my mind, or shouldn't occupy and encumber my emotional state...

and of course I started this almost 6 hours ago.

didn't get anywhere near everything done today, esp in prep for tomorrow's big training day.

But hopefully what I got done was enough, because I couldn't really do anything else.. time to ride home in the dark and i think the snow.

should be fun - even if it might be slow.

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