life lessons

are what you call shitty situations to get through them

mistakes

fuck ups

your control or not in your control

they impact you somehow though

and that's where this life lesson thing comes in

now... if you accumulate life lessons you start getting really good at giving advice

still maybe pretty shitty at taking advice or seeking it

but giving it? fuck yeah. Nailing that shit.

also though, getting older gives you the opportunity to see if and when to give this advice

you can be a dipshit forever - you can also start to realize how much of a dipshit you were and try to not be one - that's also called a life lesson.

AND

the best advice you got is probably something you didn't want to hear and you didn't follow it

legit - look back - if you've got a memory like an elephant you probably won't ever forget the big ones...

or if you're lucky you have forgotten that you were given it. maybe you were lucky in never needing it, never receiving it...

it has been one hell of a fucked up week - not bad. lots of good.

rain though...  finally getting some weather, 35 and rain is pretty awesome to commute in...  J/K

looks like Trek warrantied the wheel. different hub, hopefully same rim width. Not sure I can make it over there today, might just head to the shop tomorrow and play bike mechanic. Maybe put the XR4s on and try some knobs for a change. I hear they are slower but with more grip maybe i can make up some time with the added traction for climbing and cornering...

so yeah - got caught in the doldrums today...  went to the bookstore looking for a book, small chance, but the library got rebuked by the publisher, what the fuck is up with publishers NOT selling to libraries... yeah I could just buy the book from amazon, might come to that.

Def didn't get everything done this week, but i was very productive -

time to head out - not raining so that's finally nice, although, shit - just checked the forecast...  yeah not looking great for the ride home, shit...

wanted to get on the SEM - do some black and white photo shit... didn't.

might need to get the darkroom put together sooner than later, or perhaps tune up the guitar and start learning some chords or i dunno, set up the white blue on the trainer and do stuff to get fitter or SOMETHING...  that creative itch though...  frustrating... 

but time - patience - can on do what you can do, or something

time to do that
heddwch
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