flipping the switch

 more like tripping a breaker...

seemingly effortless to turn it off -lot more work/impossible to turn back on

was chugging along pretty well today - then poof - click

damnit

Yesterday's TT was good. Not great. The road surface is slow but I gave it everything, I don't think I could have put much more out there than I did. The wind wasn't favorable and the new road surface is slow.

As soon as you transition from the new stuff to the old it is like someone letting go - feels faster... 

20:30 - riding back it took a while to get the legs under me but then Burke and I lit it up a few times and it felt good. We talked about the old days and good rides. The talk was positive, fond recollections....  not negative. Was nice.

Came back through the office to pick up the backpack, and wow, Thayer was busy - like 2019 on a perfect summer day busy. The only reason you might suspect there was a pandemic was the handful of people wearing a mask, and all the Uber drivers sitting in their idling cars with the windows down and a mask hanging from their ear. It was packed. The sidewalks by the restaurants were full add to the wall to wall cars and people and there's no space for everyone to be safe. 

No wonder everything is so f'd.

hopefully i can get everything reset. Have been in an odd and good mood for like a week+ now...  sigh.

amor fati motherfuckers

the slight headache isn't helping

maybe i need more coffee (i don't but fuck it, it is all i have left)

And even then I've been toying with the idea of backing off to no coffee...  maybe I'll save that project for 2021 24HOGG - no point wasting the benefit before then...  

alright - maybe i'll just head out and sit on the rocks on the shore for a few minutes instead of staring at the monitors and trying to figure out the solutions to the problems sitting here...

heddwch

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