Forget the shifty squishy bike

 I just want to not be in mind maddening pain.

To not be woken up with small muscles in the back going twang with a shot of pain as they lock up with unintentional movement, one, by one, until I can't move.

And then be locked in until about 11am after the salonpas and aleve kick in.

I don't like this.

I don't like how long this is taking to heal with no obvious change in pain levels, if anything it feels like it is getting worse.

Maybe the day off yesterday was bad for it? But I slept well when before then, although with the asymmetry of the pain now i'm favoring one side over the other. 

It is the whole right side, CX? Mt Bike? Both? Yes. maybe. 

Can't go back and change the ifs but man can I feel my brain chemistry change with this flood of pain signals and then the kick back from the Aleve. It feels weird and I don't like it.

Took a screaming hot shower at 6am. Didn't help, just made me hot and sweaty after and didn't really loosen anything up.

Time, and what? I'm stretching and all that I can do, kind of all the time. Moving, not staying in one position too long.

This sucks. Will I be ready to go for Night Weasels? Probably not, but maybe. 

When will I be able to start in on the Reddiyo training plan? Dunno, not sure. Not yet.

Maybe I do need to get back in the woods on the Singlespeed and work it all out that way. Maybe that's the key to solving it. Or at least re-setting it.

Getting hot flashes with the waves of pain.

This is not fun. Really really REALLY not fun.

But it is what it is and I can only do what I can do. I suppose I need to be patient, guess it would be easier to have a broken bone with a defined healing timeline. These soft tissue/muscular connection things are vague and drawn out and so unknown, and worse and worse with age and stuff...

ugh

hell I didn't even get a chance to write up about the races...

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