about that coffee thing

So I didn't really cut back. I've been better at limiting coffee, but more effective at removing the triggers. 

Adding a few more mute words, limiting random surfing/scrolling. Expressing gratitude to those who can and are acting and engaging. 

Reading. 

Editing photos. 

Doing working. Trying to be a better me, trying to find joy out at least balance in this life and what left I have to live. 

Work to be a positive influence on the students I work with. 

Feels like this is boringly becoming an affirmation web log. Not sure if that's good. But it is maybe what I need. 

But what I REALLY need is a new 130bcd chainring for the Black Blue. Been commuting on that now that the studded tires are on the Surly. And it skips and pops. Maybe partly the freehub, mostly the chain. It's all so worn it's not funny. But there are few to no options for affordable replacements. I've got a cassette, I think I have a chain, but the chainring is so worn I can't stick s new chain on it I mean it's fucking 10+ years old. Probably 10-15k miles at least on that ring. 

Maybe I've got a new ring, it won't be the a 44t but maybe that's ok. It's not used as a CX bike anymore. Hell, until last week it hasn't been ridden since I got the Madone. 

Right now it works in the largest cogs, and the smallest. Not much in the middle. 

But holy crap it is so much faster getting to work than the studded tires on the singlespeed. 15-20 min faster with comparable effort. 

It means less time pedaling but that's not the worst. Maybe I'll have more left in the tank at the end of the week! 

It is fat Tuesday and ou I have a craving for a good Michigan Paczi it's been 20 years but I still miss them heck I'm close to my Michigan weight now but I'm also carrying a hell of a lot more lean muscle mass. I'm not super skinny, little bit of squish in the midsection, too much maybe, but I looked at an old photo from 12-14 years ago and my arms and shoulders are carrying more muscle now. And my back has been the most reliable in a long time, save for a few weeks ago. Nice that three incidents are the anomaly not the routine. 

Lots of work still left to do. But, physically things are not bad 

Eyes working better than in they have in ages. 

But still not as good as they once were but I'll take it. 

I better get going, a couple things left to do before heading up the bike path this morning. Yeah it's late. 

Oops

Heddwch

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