Thursday, March 31, 2022

sunny in Kitsap County?

 In the spring? 

Crazy.

Went for a drive, hung out with my nephew (he's not a year old yet) and his parents...  

not getting much rest, but recovering in different ways.

it is good.

a few more days and then I spent the night flying

and i'm back to the crazy

gotta say i kind of like this change of pace, would be nice if the whole sleeping schedule thing let me actually rest, but time zones and shit... 

at least there's coffee...

and still very little to no social media. hell i even made the one Strava hike up from the beach private.

heddwch
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Tuesday, March 29, 2022

time to recharge?

 I guess that's what you call it?

Trying something new, no social media about where I am or what I'm doing.

And for me not a big deal other than when I'm here I'm usually posting all sorts of fucking photos because it is amazing.

But I think maybe taking a break is good. 

Brought the big laptop, very very very little else with me. Have to write up some basics for the gallery, history, pathway to get here, what lead to the collection that kind of stuff.

Getting up at 5am eastern time and then not getting to bed until 10:30pm pacific time is a long time to be awake. And then top it off I had to drive home from Seattle through Tacoma just before bed. And today I'm wiped out from everything, from last week, the weekend, travel, riding.

No bike for the week. I rode into the headwind in the 24F weather yesterday morning. That sucked. Then I changed shoes really quickly and ran/jogged to the train station, bought a ticket and then walked down onto the train and it left. That was close.

I might put up the photos here, just to satifsy and placate the need to share. So maybe it'll be more photo journal this week. If i pull out the computer and do this. We'll see eh?





i'd annotate but maybe they are self explanatory

Heddwch
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Wednesday, March 23, 2022

backlog? Hah F'n beaver damn

 its like the fucking beavers went nuts instead of hibernating, and well, shit's stacked up and the rain's falling from the sky and the snow pack is melting and the little beaver pond is now rivaling glen canyon dam. 

That's how it feels with this here web log right now.

And ya know how that usually ends up.

All that piling up behind the dam... well it'll pile up for only so long before a flaw in the beaver's engineering is exposed and the whole thing lets loose and we start from scratch.

Reading (actually reading and listening, hybrid style approach to a book) a book. Now reading. And reading before bedtime. Been a long time since doing that. 

have to use readers now, eyes ain't what they used to be and i'm worried that the whole reading is cranking the brain up and that's fucking with my sleep.

Because I woke right the fuck up this morning at 3am with what felt like a motherfucking brilliant idea to open the presser for the Gallery show coming up.

so I woke up, grabbed my phone, headed to the bathroom, sat down to take a piss (it is fucking dark and i'm mostly asleep and that fucking toilet is a long way away from my... well you get the idea) and just start trying to get this idea into some sort of sensical idea and opening...

Haven't gone back to write it but the act of writing it def helped remember and those words and ideas are percolating. 

So oh yeah, if you're local, or find the need to travel down to Westerly, RI on April 15th, come hang out at the gallery. Gonna be the regular gallery opening things music, artist talking, shit to look at... More details here soon but put it on the fucking calendar.

Had a little cancellation today - unexpected but appreciated. First time in weeks that I've had a chance to sit in my chair, in my office for more than a few minutes. And miraculously the full facility is running smoothly right now, packed full of users and non of them have been running to me to help. At least so far.

Rained on Saturday - there's some shit i should have done but I was wrecked and tired and basically just kind felt guilty about resting and recovering while it rained.

Headed out on sunday, a bit later in the day for one hell of a good MTB ride. Not super long but no one was really taking it easy and chasing three fast old dudes crushed me and my legs. Or maybe it was the shopping right afterwards. I was a useless pile at home after all that. 

Monday was nuts but i started a new book. Inbetween Dunes (just finished Children of Dune, next one is on the phone waiting to start listening to). A walk in the Woods. A book I'd never read. Got a pile of books from a friend, like real actual paper ones. Been a while. And that mountain of books is pretty fucking tall to get through right now. So, fuck it lets read. 

either too much coffee (possible) or reading before sleeping (also possible) or body still kind of wrecked from the riding... I slept like garbage Sunday Monday and Tuesday night. Right it is Wednesday. Fucking monday felt like a Friday, I was in a FPF mood too. Caught a few people off guard. 

So yesterday - after not sleeping much I figured, fuck it, lets smackdown. Graham says it'll be a no smack smackdown. Except Leon showed up and hit it hard on the turn to Woodward and left me, Jason also kindly said he wasn't ready to go that hard, so we rode together. I went as hard as I think I felt I could w/o being at the limit. I probably could have gone faster but I dunno, was not feeling awesome. 

But knee felt good and i tweaked the saddle angle and that seemed to fix the lower back hip pain from riding this bike. Was frustrating when he dragged everyone off... but hey - that's to be expected. Gonna miss next week but maybe I'll be rested for the following Tuesday? or Fresh? or still really tired from the Red eye flight and catching up over the weekend...

Was going somewhere but got side-tracked somewhere. 

Oh that what's your favorite something ice breaker question thread on twitter the other day... yeah that is insta-freeze for my brain. "what's your favorite color?" ummmm "what's your favorite bike?" ummmm

now if you ask me "what's your favorite road shifter lever thing?" 5700... fucking instant response. No need to think...  Favorite CX pro? not much thought there, Favorite car? Actually also pretty easy: 99.5 2 door Golf TDI...  I guess it is kind of easy to see the issue, the vague social small talk questions/answers lock me the fuck up, traumatically, the specific shit that only a small handle of outliers can talk about? Those are the easy ones. 

Oh and I broke another pair of glasses. I've got basically only industrial chemical safety clear glasses to wear on the bike now. Somehow have to resolve that problem soon. If I'm going to keep riding the Black Blue (fucking thing has probably over 20k miles on it) I'll need new drive train. The chain is at the 150% wear point - but it is shimano and hasn't started skipping, much and is worn together. No, the drivetrain doesn't have that many miles on it. And shit - just looked. There's no 10speed shift left in S-tech... damnit. Well fuck I dunno then. Need a new bike but do I NEED one. No. But yeah whatever. Would be nice to be on a road bike eh? 

Anyway.

There's other stuff but I'm getting more distracted and sleepy.

Give this a watch. 


Good shit in there.

Heddwch
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Tuesday, March 15, 2022

Trail builders shanty...

 They climbed the hill one morning, the weather it was fair

The peak loomed high above the clouds and no one gave a care.

They walked in cotton and that day and they dreams they never failed.

They're out to build a might trail for all of us to rail

The captain said a piece of gold for those who shaped me trail.

So bend your backs and dig me lads.

I know that we won't fail.

So bend your backs and dig the lads,

and build this mighty trail.

Tonight we'll sing and dance, and tomorrow night we can rail.

And Yubee rigged some dynamite and lit a faulty fuse

it blew the rock and took them too, leaving nothing but their shoes

now 100 years have passed 

since the captain and his crew split the earth 

and cracked the rock that trail came rushing through.

The trail it goes on living, for that rock it bares a scar.

And if you ever drop that chute, a voice calls from afar.

Bend your backs and dig me lads and build this mighty trail.

Tonight we'll sing and dance and tomorrow we can rail.

We'll carve and shape the loam and dirt and a prouder folk they'll be.

To carve a trail that plummets from the mountains to the sea.

https://youtu.be/juxlm5dorLU

Friday, March 11, 2022

To film in pure black and white

 Maybe only possible with the Q2 from Leica? 

Filming on a 28 lens only? perhaps?

But holy mother of all that is nature and beauty it would be completely enthralling to watch.

Accurate and true grayscale...  no RBG noise... This film does a good job in B&W but there are moments that feel not quite as good as can be.


Perhaps I've watched too many black and white films, maybe strongest of the influences being: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beauty_and_the_Beast_(1946_film)

holy crap it is on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSsw3WJgKrw (for now)

And yeah, that's black and white. Rending black and white with digital isn't a problem, but capturing it? That's where the challenge lies. The fucking cursed bayer mask.

I love the black and white films just like I prefer and love black and white images.
Here's another: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytEqB_lVJA8

And probably always will. There's a place for color, for sure, but sometimes... sometimes you need black and white.  Ah to be really actually wealthy... such is life tho.

Hey maybe the Comencal was shot on a https://www.red.com/DSMC2-MONOCHROME-BRAIN?quantity=1&sensor=1  doesn't quite feel like it, but what do I know. stills mostly... But when I look at that link I'm thinking there is one hell of a lot more stuff that needs to be purchased to start creating with it. 

Damnit - used up my time, have to focus so i can leave my office sanctuary before it is dark (didn't bring lights today to try and force myself to think about the departure).

y'all be good, create as well as consume quality

heddwch
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Tuesday, March 08, 2022

lightfall

 You'll have to watch to get the quote exactly correct, but:

Preparedness brings you closer to luck


Gets ya thinking eh? If you put the effort in, the work, have the planning and practice in place, you're in a better place to take advantage of luck.

Or chance. 

Better able to recognize that lucky opportunity. 

Without the prep, the work, the knowledge, luck can walk up wave a big flag saying HERE I AM THIS IS THE MOMENT, and it will be invisible to the unprepared.

It is why we practice/hone your craft or skill.

In bike racing is it most like the alignment of a good day with race day.

Just something to think about. 

When you frame luck like that, esp as a photographer, it makes sense.

The amateur can get 'lucky' by shooting a thousand frames, they might get lucky and get a good one. But the practiced and skilled 'pro/am' can recognize the luck of being in the right place, or knowing if they put them in a certain position and be aware, that lucky shot will show up. And with one click capture it.

It isn't just photography tho. And most of my analogies fall into the arts realm, or the skill realm. 

But some people are wired like that about dealing with other people, I don't think I am, but I also maybe agonize over lost opportunities more than some, or had. Haven't been what iffing lately, that's good. But I do recognize in the past that I was aware of that lucky break or opportunity that tremendous sign but was too afraid, unconfident, anxious, fill in the fucking blank to seize it.

But here i am and now. And that's neither here or there or related to this short film. Thinking about this film, directly with the SEM artwork, that putting one self in a place to make something special.

in the end:

"Knowledge and preparedness allows you to be lucky.

So there's the technical side of, you know, knowledge.

And then the preparedness of like, getting it, and then all of a sudden just having luck.

You're closer to luck.

Maybe that's an addition that I'm addicted to is lining all those stars up.

There it is, and all this sweat and waiting, and a bit of drama there is all worth it."

Amor Fati Motherfuckers

Heddwch
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Wednesday, March 02, 2022

what is gravel

 I think they do a good job with this short film.

Capturing what it is, what it means, what it has become. 

Yeah we've all been doing it for a fuck of a lot longer than it has been called gravel. 

Deliberately picking to include some dirt roads on the road bikes because it is fun as hell, but also to watch that one or two people in the group who you know are absolutely not comfortable off the pavement, a few I knew just didn't like it because they thought the bike's paint might get dinged. I have some of the most iconic and beautifully painted bikes and have never shied away from riding them anywhere.

https://youtu.be/qgUDW8qImwc

check the link, maybe it'll autofix - maybe you'll have to cut and paste...


It is a little like CX was in the early days, very inclusive, welcoming. But unlike CX it isn't as hard and just finishing is enough. CX is still a race no matter how you distill it. The CX bikes were the first gravel bikes for sure. They 'paved' the way but needed some help.

It is funny having this perspective on the sport. There were changes before i started racing but they were pretty small compared to now. MTBs hit the mainstream just as I started riding them. I rode that wave, hitched on to CX as it grew, watched MTB fade, local road racing more or less disappear, CX fade a little, gravel grow, MTB expand again...

Odd having this perspective. 

Watching that tho, drove home something that did kind of always bug me. I mean sure, I am me and I am the way I am because of that and maybe this is how it is supposed to be. I love these big adventures on the bike. Michigan's Coast to Coast, 24HOGG, whatever else that's crazy and insane, but all of these over the years, even just CX, I feel really really really alone at the start, not so much during, but very much at the end. 

Alone.

I'm not but i watch a film like that with people being enthusiastically greeted when they finish and all that... 

I guess maybe need to work on the Jean Marc mentality, in some ways that's how i do it, why i do it, maybe all the ways. But unlike J-M i've always been aware around me. Of others. 

thinking back to the last CX... Ice Weasels. I made the long drive there alone, set up alone, chatted with others for sure, but then left alone. 

Maybe that is why some of the most memorable races have been traveling to them with someone else, going through the process with them. Even if they were racing a different event like Mark LFN. 

I'm now kind of mad at myself for this tangent. 

But maybe it is partly due to being halfway through finally reading Seth's really long bit:
https://citsb.com/2021/12/25/old-boot-re-boot/

Def having very tangible bad PTSD of growing up under the threat of nuclear annihilation, my students have not a fucking inkling about that, they have other worries but don't really understand the implications of what it was like. 

Got me wondering how the star wars program ever got along, can we shoot down all the missiles fired at us? Could we ever have? 

What if someone does do a low earth orbit nuke detonation and wipes out all the satellites? Yeah yeah rash and over reacting and all that, nothing to be done about it anyway, I guess. Sigh.

It is tough to keep going, keep working through it. But at somepoint last week Ihad the microscope monk mindset take over. in that it is sort of how I am...  but anyway

time to blast, step away before the computer restarts on me.

heddwch
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Thursday, February 24, 2022

Musical interlude


 

I was going to leave, Wahoo was at 9%, so rather than running apps once it dies, I'm charging it a little. Hoping maybe it'll soak up enough charge to get me home. 

And so i pulled up the 'tubes again... and saw this...

Tom Waits? Sean Rowe? Fuck yeah...

hit this one up if you want:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5-r5Bl9jEBk


heddwch

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words

 So much building up.

I did finally finish watching 'The Alpinist" fucking hell that was amazing but sad and lots of words about it but there's some really solid and important truths in that film. It was really well done and very very thought provoking. I got lucky stopping when I did, really a perfect point where I could really let the first part of the film soak in, digest and absorb without the trauma from the second half that felt definitely foreshadowed but maybe not inevitable? 

Been trying to stay present and focused. Working a little.

Thursday, February 17, 2022

links

These have been hanging out in the chrome on my phone as tabs. Yeah I needed to clean it up. So I closed em all after copying over to this.

https://www.pickr.com.au/reviews/2021/leica-q2-monochrom-digital-camera/

https://www.brooklynvegan.com/brooklynvegans-top-50-albums-of-2021/

https://www.tonyscoffee.com/brewguides/aeropress/

https://www.nytimes.com/games/wordle/index.html

https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2022/02/07/tabula-rasa-volume-three

https://www.singletracks.com/mtb-progression/mountain-bikers-guide-to-keto-a-brief-overview-of-the-low-carb-diet-for-riders/

https://www.topeak.com/us/en
Why this? Because i keep trying to remember to share the code with people, what code?

discount code for 20% off 'WILLIAMS-22'
Not everything is in stock but they have a bunch of cool stuff, and 20% off is 20% off. 

https://regatta.time-team.nl/crashb/2022/results/e6fe67dc1-9484-4426-bee6-26d955063bd0.php
results with the videos for each heat.

Trying to crank through everything, dropping balls here and there.

But also kind of slowly moving closer to figuring it all out, well not ALL of it, but a functional process and being able to move forward. Part of it was taking tuesday off. Like I said. Crazy. But in reflection having that day free from obligations to relax is important to balance how much I'm trying to accomplish, but then again there's a fuck ton of shit i needed to do that I didn't but I just can't keep going the way I have been.

And as far as the training goes? My knee is still not 100%. It is getting better but there's always a set back or two. Cutting back activity and letting the body rest actually seems to help the knee. NO SHIT DUMBASS (talking to myself obvs). So, I need to remind myself that, yeah, getting healthy, well, as much as possible, is important. more important than trying to hit a few workouts that might set the recover back.

It has been a while since i've gone full samuel beckett here, might need to hit that longwinded stream of conciousness non stop word vomit soon... why?

well, i had a few minutes, not quite enough time for a full movie and didn't want to try and read a book, so I hit a rec from a while ago about a movie, was told, just watch it, don't read about it, just watch even if you know what happened/the ending, well I don't know what happened or the ending and I'm just past halfway and i have an idea about it but am fully engaged and honestly it was kind of impactful in many ways even just the first part and that's a bit weird but i guess the rec was absolutely spot on so, well, looking forward to finding the time to carve out and watch the last part of it. Might have a bit more to dig into when I finish it. I don't want to say what the film is other than it is a documentary and it is less than 2 hrs long and is new. pretty easy to avoid unintentional spoilers when you're not looking for them but hard when they are tossed at you. So. yeah, gonna have to wait for that.

okay - back to my bullshit, lets see if I can get out of here before i've been here far too long today, like most days. 
SETTING BOUNDARIES
amazing shit if you can make it happen.

crazy
heddwch
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Tuesday, February 15, 2022

catch up?

 Maybe.

Took today off, had some big plans, the list of shit to get done is pretty daunting, but i've been wiped out by everything and the sheer intensity of everything.

Was looking in the mirror last night, I've changed, I look older. I am older. Maybe i need to start acting like it, I looked at myself and said, slow the fuck down. At least for a little bit. 

No one has ever faulted my endurance or stubbornness. Gets me through most things. Never been the fastest, or the quickest. 

Woke up with a solid early coffee headache. Happens when I stop drinking coffee at 2pm instead of 4 or 5 pm. I don't like it when that happens.

But I also managed to snag a 3/6 in that five letter word game, was stuck at a 5 for that many days I think.... I try to wait to play until after coffee is made, sometimes I make it, sometimes not so much. 

Made chocolate waffles for  the house yesterday morning, cooked up some more with the left over batter this morning. 

Sent everyone out the door, put my feet up, tried to rest and relax, maybe nap. No dice. Watched the end of one movie i started a while ago, watched another i'd been wanting to see for a bit while eating lunch. Did laundry. Doing laundry. Reading? nope. watching more TV? nope.

I was thinking I should get on the trainer and do tomorrow's planned workout today. Nope. 

Kid suggested I talk to someone professionally about this low battery feeling. Hell I know what's up, I'm literally not taking any down time. Not having any time to recharge. I know that's the first thing i need to do. Rest, recover... even full of coffee I managed to almost fall asleep. I did get completely relaxed, like that really nice feeling of just everything going slack. I can kind of do it on demand, starting with the feet, moving to the head. just let everything turn off, it is a good feeling.

Sorry the blogging has been lagging lately. Start of class has changed the dynamic. Teaching though does what it always does, both energizes and exhausts but def more of the first and while I feel tired I'm also not feeling anything negative. 

But I am feeling tired and def not motivated to get on the trainer in the basement to do a prescribed workout. No races planned looking forward, nothing till March. Weather is fucking strange, def want to get out for some long MTB rides. Maybe toss some faster rolling lighter tires on the Top Fuel and make it a gravel bike. Might need a bladder or some other way of carrying more liquid tho. One bottle cage sucks.

other kid did well on Sunday, not quite the target time for her 2k but still a PR and in the closest race and it was tight and she gave it all. 

I keep coming back to death lately, I forget what it was this time, maybe something about the direction of what's happening, about what my Grandfather might have thought about things, about how those who are gone are that. And I thought more about why people really so firmly hold on to the notion of a soul, and life beyond this, and how when we're dead...  we're gone. I hope I have time to come to terms with it all... I think one trigger at the end of last week was going to Ship Street...  seeing the ghost bike for Evan B-B. Thinking about him dying there, in the heat, about to win a race... what happened to his bikes, are they being ridden or cared for the way he appreciated them? But does it really matter what happens. Does someone's prize collection of something just get thrown away? Why do we form such intense bonds with objects? And yes, I think quite often about my dad and his abosolute refusal to part with certain items, most of the stuff. Gotta be genetic, the amount of stuff my grandfather had too. But those are two quite different men, neither of which were really very good influences on me. I mean they could have been much worse influences. 

Thinking too much. Time to escape beyond the second half of a movie or a whole movie where a complicated storyline has to be conveyed in less than 2 hours. 

best dig into a book, they last longer.

but first maybe I just need to rest. 

def don't have the energy to pick up and deliver and work on installing the gallery show

was a few other things I wanted to get out of my head, maybe tomorrow.

gonna rest some more, so hopefully I can hang around a bit longer, with luck...

amor fati motherfuckers
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Thursday, February 10, 2022

I started writing

 three separate posts

they are all drafts

time? what time, and when I get home i'm just cracked and barely getting through making dinner.

planned to do a Reddiyo workout last night, toooooo tired even after riding the e-bike all week+

Like since forever ago... Today was the first day on the singlespeed commuter and it felt great, very nice to be on a bike that fits but not quite before my back started complaining and other issues started cropping up. Pedaling on flat pedals in the boots and then wearing the boots probably wasn't great for that long.

need to start reading...  checked out Ready Player Two to listen to since the book I bought a while back still hasn't been read and now there's an extra pile of books on top of the other books. Need to change habits somehow and get to reading more.

Working on it. 

For a very very long time I had tried to find the Saturday morning cartoon that I really liked, the one that was different, stood out... For some reason it eluded me. Keywords never seemed to fit. Space aircraft carrier, space navy, space i dunno something, it was space, and some sort of naval ship and small ships and Speed Racer like characters. Some of you probably remember and already have the name of the cartoon in your head. Today? Faceplace suggested Star Blazers as a group... and I'm just kind of like WHAT THE ACUTAL FUCK AND HOW AND THAT'S IT.


And they are all on Youtube. Srsly. I never saw the first few, hell I don't think i ever saw more than a handful of episodes but the ones I did see made an impression. And I could never figure it out.

And here they are.

Add that series to the list of things to take up my time.

Have to cut this way short, been more active on twitter than I should be maybe, but it fits more of the timeslot opening that I have lately. Very very brief bits here and there. Mobile not desktop. It is all just really busy and intense and maybe at some point it will all sort out a bit better, more easily and yeah... maybe not.

Such is the path chosen. The choices you make or the choices you don't make you still have made the choice or how ever the fuck those lyrics go. Brain SO BROKEN right now. But not bad space, just tired. Working really hard on supporting everyone around and that's not as bad as it has been in the past.

So that's good, things are not bad, just a bit overwhelming, and after an insanely overwhelming couple years, yeah, it is alot.

Will sign off, maybe even try to get home before it gets dark. Which is important since I just realized I didn't charge the headlight (ebike has built in light that never goes out) and I haven't used it in a long time.

Woops.

Heddwch
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Tuesday, February 01, 2022

so yeah... BossTones broke up

 Then we had a major fucking massive storm.

Two feet near by, drifts in the back yard over 6' and base because of the fence of 4' and mountains of snow in the front yard/street side that are over my head.

It hasn't been above freezing and the bike path is fucking impassable. Might have enough people walking on it that I can make a go at riding the Stache to work. Maybe. Would be better than riding on the road.

Yesterday kind of sucked. Remember what happened with the new to me studded tire last year? Happened again, the other one. Flat. But at least closer to work this time. Would have been bad if it happened at the mid-way point. 

Made it hope on the other spare tire I had at work. 

Put the old studded tire back on instead of the new old one for this morning. Was good that I did. So much ice but also sketchy bullshit that no tire is good on.

Of course we're getting a major rain event on Friday, then it'll be single digits on Saturday. Haven't had the bike path this fucked up since 2015 and IIRC someone ran a snow blower on part of the path that year.

No a fat bike wouldn't help. 

First class yesterday and i was fucking leveled. It is exhausting, but such a damn good group of students.

Looking forward to it.

but also slept well i guess, felt like I had a week's worth of dreams, they went on and on and on and woke up to the alarm super confused. Still tired but that was really strange.

Saw someone's posting of a Whoop score...  99% recovered and rested, or something and I was seriously very much completely unable to fathom what that would be like. I don't even know when the last time was that I had any sort of idea what being rested is like. Then I looked at Whoop and hey it is subscription based and hardware is free... oh well guess i'll not be trying that out anytime soon. Not sure how i feel about wearables anyway. Hell I've been on the e-bike (studded tires) for too long, haven't even put the HR band on... 

Got in late (changing tire and stupid cold this morning and since there was school needed to wait for that traffic to clear) ate breakfast late, so not hungry now but I'll probably be hungry mid-session. 

Oh well it is what it is.

All that shoveling and I don't really feel sore. strange but cool? SSMTB? maybe? Dunno.

Will try and trackback and get the drafts published but we'll see about that.

time to go show some folks how to use a fancy scope

heddwch
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Thursday, January 27, 2022

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

 CK


Seriously....  sitting here crushed, unexpectedly impacted more than I'd have guessed.

If you were to ask me, you can see one live show what would it be:

Tuesday, January 18, 2022

there's a draft waiting

 I'll poke back at it later - i think it was from Friday night.

it is Monday...no, Tuesday that feels like a Monday after a Monday that felt like a Sunday.

Watched this over lunch before heading to a meeting with the Printer to get the gallery stuff in process, looks like maybe we'll be a Month out from the opening, so soon, maybe Omicron will have died down and it will be enough time before Pi comes and hands everyone their lunch but we'll see, maybe it is a mask only 

shit masqureade opening....  ooof brain esplosion with that idea - could be cool...

anyway it'll be good but back to before lunch, the soundtrack is fabulous btw:


and my french is terrible, but not as bad as I feared, I can still almost understand what's being said some of the time. 

Songs like this: https://youtu.be/cgwDR95QPVM

or: https://youtu.be/s4Afw3_jc_k

or: https://youtu.be/tYUDXnJf3IY

some new tunes I hadn't heard yet... paired well with the action

the meeting has me flat out exhausted tho

should be good

oh and if you missed it (IE don't follow Thom on IG or didn't get the link sent to you by me):

Heddwch
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Tuesday, January 11, 2022

why do we do it?

 Between Friday and Today, well... if you add up the people who rode their bike outside in RI 

There's going to be me and...  probably no one else.

Got in fine today, it was fucking cold tho.

really cold.

Not quite single digits F but close enough and the wind was brutal from the north.

aka a headwind.

really liked having the lighter gear on the singlespeed

Not sure you can call Stevil's thing a blog, it is more a weekly post to drive sales and shit so he can eat food and keep the lights on and buy beers and whatnot. So yeah that's still all good reasons and that he posts good shit and writes well.

I'm not sure i ever do either, maybe borderline post good shit, mostly just shit he or someone else posts that I see and i aggregate here because well whatever for some reason.

Damn I'm down. Whatever, it'll pass. Life moves on. And here I was going to leave and ride home in the ridiculous cold. Yet here I am. Still at work. 

Party is I checked Stevil's post and then clicked over and watched this.


Brown sugar snow is the worst. A mix of dirt and salt and snow and cold so cold it won't melt but all that extra shit in there keeps it from solidifying and then the cars pack it down and it is tough to ride on. 

There's so much to read at Stevils that I have to come back, my brain is glossing over and my attention is drifting and i can't focus. Maybe tomorrow, but maybe you want to go read it now. Or not.

Awe fuck...  temps have dropped, now a nice warm 13°F oh well it isn't that cold only what -10 or -11°C, not like it is -40° (F or C the same). But yeah, even ridden in that too. 

Time to bundle up, needs more than just jeans and a thin jacket for this shit.

I miss my fucking mittens tho, esp on days like today.

Amor Fati Motherfuckers

Heddwch
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Thursday, January 06, 2022

even avoiding it...

 it is a lot. 



What happened last year on this day.

Wednesday, January 05, 2022

comings and goings

 The blogsphere is dead.

dried up mouse in the crawlspace for 20 years dead

piles of pill bugs dead

Tuesday, January 04, 2022

twenty twenty [part] two

 

 
Yeah motherfuckers WELCOME BACK

I mean we haven't really gone anywhere. 
Sort of mostly true.
But now we're back.

And there's a whole new wrinkle of crazy added to the mix.
A wrinkle that might make it easier and less stressful.
Eventually.

Recap:
brought the Stache to VA (3 days there and rode trails on two of those days, the other day was christmas) 
Tried to ride everyday the week after, didn't make it, weather or other stuff got in the way, but I did ride the Stache once after putting the 170mm seatpost back on (full of squeak killing teflon pipe dope grease this time). Then the next day rode the Top Fuel with the new 9point8 offset seatpost. Then the 31st went up to ride Borderlands with Mike and his crew. And the rear der did the same thing it did in May on the ride with Syl. Rear der went boom. And instead of being able to put it back together the bolt was not to be found. Scootered back the three miles to the car. That was a bummer, bike was feeling awesome, dropper working really well.
Went back out on the 2nd it was wet in Big River, it is never wet in there. But it was a good ride.
Got stuff printed yesterday for a show here, and talked about the bigger gallery show.

And here I am.

Just as fucking exhaust as I was before.

Oops and things got accelerated today. 

Time to eat a really quick lunch.

maybe more later
AMOR FATI MOTHERFUCKERS
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Tuesday, December 21, 2021

counting down

 variables keep shifting, plans evolve, options open...

life is one hell of a ride, watching a series with E last night some show was calling someone in their early 40s old, and they were waxing poetic about never being too old to start over even when you're old..

and yeah... i'm old, we're old, but here we are, sure as hell beats the alternative.

on the old side I watched episode 3 of Old Enough to Know Better... because I really needed to hear a dude who is 36 complaining about being too old. or old enough to know better. I sure as FUCK thought I knew everything at that age, and oh wow was I fucking wrong as fuck about so much, but I did get lots right and the opinions that were not right were still coming from a place trying to help, so while maybe a bit off, still intentions haven't waivered. 


Still trying to help... but then I guess no good deed goes unpunished. The bigger the gift of self the longer you have to suffer in torment maybe?

Not sure what brought that line on.

This one got to me today https://gravelbikearchive.wordpress.com/2013/06/16/remembering-dad/ 

It has been one hell of a couple years.. so much loss.. 

So far I've done a good job at making sure I have more work to do next year. But then I can only get to what I can get to and if i take an extra break to drink a cup of coffee in my office and get some thoughts out of my head after watching a video, well... that works for me.

Maybe Omicron will peak in 2 weeks and everything will be 'normal' by mid-january. 

Except, we all know nothing is ever going to be normal again.

Amor Fati Motherfuckers
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Also I like the idea of moving to Greenland with a bunch of Mountain bikes (dirt jumpers, DH, Enduro, XC, HT...) and a skid steer with both a bucket and a backhoe and just ride and build trails. There's gotta be some snow free space, and more and more soon, right? Also no people. Just bikes and riding bikes and making trails and oh, right, i'm old... fine I'll just make lots of easy trails but all different and just ride. 

One can dream eh? no?