I miss you coffee

Every once in a while when I get to the picture factory and change out of the commuting kit, I miss the ritual of walking down the hall, filling up the carafe with water, pulling out a filter, filling it with the wonderful smelling aroma of a fine coffee, and waiting as the dark rich hot liquid is created. Drinking it I don't miss so much. The dependence, the headaches without it. The need for huge volumes of it. I'm actually have somewhat of a trepidation about even just having one cup. Or making a small pot. After almost 20 years of a steadily increasing diet of coffee I'm not sure I can go back to drinking only a small amount. Maybe just limiting myself to an espresso before a race? I haven't even raced cross with caffeine. And if there is a "sport" that you can realized a benefit from caffeine, it is cross, short, intense.