yeah - it is monday

I'm more rested thanks to the early coffee cessation yesterday. And to DiPinto for drinking part of the pot I made at the shop while teaching the bike maintenance class.

I was dead tired early. Couldn't keep eyes open at 6pm. Struggled through making dinner, got in bed just after 8, read a little more, fell asleep.

Man was I off yesterday. Way way way off. Not much better today. Saw this earlier today and though yeah kind of right.

Depression is like airplane mode, but for people.

— Brandon (@brandonlgtaylor) November 11, 2018

Can't really sort it out, just have to keep working on getting everything done.

Ride tomorrow is cancelled, not just because it is raining all day but that certainly makes it easier. now to figure out what to do with the day - probably just be back here catching up on stuff could be doing in the few minutes I'm writing this.

Not even quite sure how to describe it, chemically it is probably just nothing is firing in any of channels. Hey welcome to my world. Maybe this is still part of the re-adjustment to being with out the ETOH chemical influence and the downstream metabolites. Lets go with that. And stick with that I guess as the going plan and keep pushing through.

At least I'm recovered almost completely from that last cold. Tiny bit of nose stuffiness. Kind of wish I could clear out one of the days of the week when the weather isn't shitty but yeah, no dice.

Maybe I can scrounge a few hours anyway.

Also thinking about the bikes. Yeah I have that sweet Klein Qunatum Pro, and I love that bike, I like just seeing it hanging in the bike room. But riding it, not so much, maybe care too much for it, or the shit on there is old, the levers just don't feel super comfortable... The dead CX bikes were at least really good road bikes. until the cranks fell off. The white blue is trainer ready but not road ready (brakes) still down a crank on the black blue. The paramount needs a new fork, and the Crockett is an awesome CX bike but it sure ain't much for road and I'd have to change tires. But a road bike with only a 34t chainring kind of sucks. I made a 40t work for a year, but that was pretty spinny.

I took the orange tank out saturday, the big surly 1x1. lovely tall gear perfect for around here, good for riding on the road alone, not so much with others. Ah well.

plugging through, trying to make it work, life is crazy, for everyone yeah?

Time for lunch - writing in fits and starts probably reads pretty terribly - fortunately there aren't many reading it.

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