Hurricane Henri, that is. Huge build up, going right for us, no going west, no back at us, ooh worse and worse... build up build up...
then downgraded then actually moving further west again...
wound up with some heavy bands of rain early today, then not much, brief periods of strong gusty winds, a little misty rain, winds from a normal direction, nothing too crazy.
No MTB ride, no dirt church.
Kind of itching to ride but still a risk of falling limbs and everything is wet.
maybe should just go for a walk before it gets dark to just stretch the legs a little.
on the other hand it has been a day of really not much.
got up and made some french toast, took the oldest to the train to go back to Boston came home, finished listening to the 3rd book in the Hell Diver's series, ate food...
tried to fix the electric kettle that won't work again, can't find anything wrong, wires all go where they are supposed to, no smoke or bad looking stuff, so either a faulty switch or dead heating coil. finally pitched it in the garbage. done. not fixing.
I know should fix but also stuff, don't need broken stuff and we don't make much tea around here and when we do the stove kettle works well enough.
Weird to have a day off. like off off. no bike ride, no shopping, just hanging out and resting... kind of want more coffee but it is after 4pm and i'll just stick with being tired.
Storm anxiety meant not a great night sleep, so far it almost looks like we have blue skies out there.
we've had bigger more powerful unnamed storms crash through. Will be interesting to see how the bike path looks. Guess I could head out and check on it, maybe that's a good thing to do before dinner,,, or just keep it a total rest day.
Def felt like I wanted to ride, but I guess the rest is good, i don't have any form to lose and I know i've been riding tired for months now, just feels weird having a day that is normal for some.
Birthday ride plans have fizzled and evaporated, much like this hurricane.
Maybe I just need to do a N-S trail solo adventure? I dunno tho feels even sadder to ride bikes all day alone than not riding bikes... i've got a week to figure it out, kind of surprisingly bummed it fell through, not surprised, no just sad.
"you have so many friends" yeah no never feels like it... and yeah i don't like my birthday and i really don't like this one esp now... whatever, it is just a day and who cares how old I am now, do the numbers really matter? does anything? Some people have parties and friends, some people don't.
just have to make it through the next 8 days or so and get through it. week should be busy enough to keep me somewhat distracted... but probably not distracted enough.
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was gonna write new post but that would be silly, who does two posts in one day... besides me...
also for other reasons
realized a bit ago, i'm in one of those depressed states, also recognizing that it always happens about this time of the year, but adding to it now is the let down post 24HOGG, the knee keeping me off the bike last week and the storm keeping me off it this weekend, the fact that I need to warranty the new fork on the new bike on the frame i STILL haven't paid for that costs way too much money but that fits me really well and besides the low bottom bracket (can't fix it but could put a smaller ring on there) and the too long seat post (swap with Stache most likely) i REALLY like it and it rides so nicely. Oh and well seems college and other costs (new roof, new windows - both critical and needed) oh and new car, forgot that - we're back to worrying about cashflow, funny how not worrying about that takes a big weight off, or adds it back on... good news on the bike is, bike shop boss man, is understanding and once the new frames are out i'll order one to replace this one. maybe shit will turn around by then. hahaha right... sure... things aren't bad yet but it is very different from before the roof, and the car, fuck i forget we bought a fucking car. and yeah i know - every year it becomes a big deal and y'all are probably all tired of it and just need me to fix my shit and get over it... i'm working on it, thought I had a better handle on it last year (but can probably look back and see that no i didn't) and then i have to go and turn 50...
oh yeah right, last year was going along really well until I smashed my head on the rock... right...
thing is, i don't know where i want to ride, trying to put 50 miles into a loop in BR sounds possible but also intense and not easy but maybe that's what I need to do? Can do that alone, leave car over at Hopkins Hill lot, circle back through there on loops to resupply. Would be pretty crazy and probably stupid but it is one of the ideas floating around right now... maybe i'll play with trail maps this week and see what I can do. Also could do 50 miles on the N-S trail - 25 one way and back... learn the route a little... i'm trying to work on the positive side - stay focused and engaged but it is really really really difficult fighting the annual discouragement and funk... just watching a chef show and the person starts in on talking about how much joy it brings them to make a cake for someone's birthday and the pleasure that person gets from eating it... i don't even like cake and here i am and those few words and that short bit of time on the documentary pushed me down the hole a little more.
three days of not pedaling and keeping my knee elevated and it is feeling a lot better.
so there's that... fixed the cleats on the shoes i think, got em where they should be, not sure how i thought they weren't in the same place as before, it seems so far off.
the week is packed but already one cancellation (more of a postponement - ahahahah good luck with that) but of course there are three things to fill that one slot just waiting...
at least we didn't lose power, a dud storm is a good one, not getting wrecked is good. Sorry if you or folks you know did get hammered by Henri.
i'm tired but not in the sense that coffee or sleep can fix... i need a week of recharge, two days of wondering what the fuck am i suppose to do, a few days of getting used to it and a day to get it all right before having to go back to non-stop everything.
i can dream right?
had weird ones last night now that I am thinking about it...
anyway - good to get those things out of my head, maybe it will help, and yeah, i'll be fine, i'll figure it out, one foot in front of the other, one pedal stroke at a time
3 comments:
You could do 50 miles in Wrentham and Foxboro with a short road transfer to Borderland.
that could work... but would be better with a guide...
I can't be much help there. I don't think I've ridden an MTB 50 miles in the past decade. I rode in Wrentham when the old Treadhead Classic existed. Foxborough used to be a regular thing, and it had marked loops, the longest and easiest was 12 miles. I'm going back 30 years or so. As far as I know both those places are still moto-legal, which keeps things pretty clear.
I could tell you the shortest route to Borderland... I know the trails in there well enough to avoid them, but that's because I'me averse to mud, mosquitoes, bridges, and wet boulders. But you can easily follow the route from the February race, as that traverses just about every legal trail in the place.
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