dunno if that is it or something else.
I woke up feeling like I had just gotten a fabulous night sleep.
but still felt sluggish and tired, a weird combo. So maybe I did sleep well but am so tired that it is going to take more than one night of good sleep to recover...
that or i gotta stop drinking coffee (and bulk up on weight, i keep forgetting that I gained a bunch when not drinking the bean juice) or something
maybe just a vacation
ah that's funny, i crack myself up...
Got up, coffee, got kid to school - rode along and drove the car home - ate food while watching one of the death and robot short films, dug out the black blue loaded up the training plan on the garmin and headed out for the workout in the cold.
that was fucking hard and my heart rate things 1min on 1min off efforts are a joke. Oh we're supposed to start pumping? Fine, okay here we go... oh you're done? Fine how about we stay super high and only settling just as you start the next effort... maybe i am to tired for this
maybe i'm just out of shape
maybe i'm just built to ride forever, just not fast
And then of course that meant there was a good gap in the coffee consumption
too much of a gap
and now i have a headache
AND i'm still tired, both from that workout and life
I keep forgetting to finish filling out a form.
I still feel like I'm trying to do too much but at the same time feel like i'm failing by not doing enough
all that and i haven't even touched on the emotions of loss yet
time for some single speed meditation on the way home.
maybe there'll be a tailwind.
heddwch
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3 comments:
So, your strava feed is going to start being interesting? Sweet!
maybe not visually - stealth structure - bike path intervals, will look boring and normal at first glance...
but then maybe i will need to figure out a few routes, that or get on the trainer (ugh)
Most of my rides look the same on the map too. But for the masters riders I follow closely out of training interest, I look at laps and the analysis tab. My notes and descriptions are for both reader enjoyment and reference by my future self. I'll go back and look at last October and see that I'm repeating the same mistakes...
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