This morning?

 Workout?

Yeah nope.

So busy I forgot to hit publish on yesterdays garbage patch.

Guess I'll try and get home and do the workout tonight. Wondering how many TSS/WS is too many for a week for someone as slow and stressed as I am. I hit nearly 500 WS over the last two weeks (in a row) and I'm guessing that's probably contributing to why I was so tired and unable to compete the workout with only one day off the bike.

None of the workouts are over 100, but commutes aren't zero and I'm still functioning in a sleep deficit (not as bad as it has been) but overall life stress isn't measured and it is pretty significant.

Case in point, dreams last night were frustration RAGE machines, hard to explain the details now but the overall feeling of frustration and rage and all was and still is palpable.

Maybe I can channel some of that rage embedded to get through the interval.

Knee has been doing better but still residue soreness. I think maybe I need a week off of the singlespeed surly, too much torque. Need more spinny. Or something else. The diclofenac sodium topical gel (Voltaren) applied at night just before bed has been very effective at reducing the inflamation.

So maybe in a bit of time it'll be resolved.

Saw this...  https://usacycling.org/article/quick-and-easy-5-ingredient-meals my brain is still broken, that's a crazy list... skratch labs cook book has better foods and better seasoning and all those recipes are bland AF

there was some other stuff I was thinking about but forgot now... 

I did try and figure out TSS load limits, but didn't come up with anything more than a category breakdown not an age one although i'm sure there are plenty of 50 year olds that can hand a cat 1 level week of 700-1000 TSS, i'm def not one of them. As evidence by my getting lapped by everyone at Fruitlands.

Trying the eat more to combat fatigue, sort of working. But not totally. Back of my brain still wonders if the thyroid enlargement (basic and specific tests said all the levels were normal) has something to do with it all. 

also go listen to this album start to finish (or not, might not be your style) but is one motherfucking iconic album and important bit of musical history

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_mG7ndizgcX0QrrKh3zF9lFyU6eFzprgiE

okay -time to wrap shit up- still haven't gotten to item three or four on the list and today was pretty much non-stop back to back...

Things not getting done that need to: 
#1 - start interview process with applicants for the job that will help here at work

#2 - work through the rest of the imaging on the SEM for the gallery show opening soon

#3 - course syllabus

But those are large tasks that will take time, focused and uninterrupted. The antithesis of what I have in-between all the fixing and teaching.

Maybe tomorrow (been saying this all week)

oh well

amor fati motherfuckers

G