same old same old

 One foot in front of the other. 

shuffle through the darkness towards the light, three's nothing major blocking the way, but i can't stop here...

laughed when I realized, usually there's at least one card, usually more, and often at least one token or treasured present. 

this year? nothing... and that's okay, i think i needed that as well... esp since I haven't been able to let go of cards and have them scattered in boxes somewhere all over the place from all the years. don't need more stuff. 

no, i'm still under the shadow of last week. yesterday was good. woke up way early, rode with Greve, then Arnout, then a couple miles alone, first fast, then a hard technical rocky climb and following technical rocky trail. Finished up over 20 miles on the SSMTB and felt good when I was done. Like surprisingly good. Even being tired and under-rested. Hit the grocery store, came home, relaxed and then went to Greve's party with a few others, small one but good celebration. 

maybe i'll try something like that next year... 

Today was pure rest. Mentally tortured about needing to do one project or another, should work on this, clean up or organize that, and then the rain held off and held off and held off and I was thinking shit I should have hit the trails this morning, but I split a caffeinated seltzer with the kid (one of the 100mg ones) before the party, aka a few hours later than I should have had any but I was so f'n tired. End result, I was awake enough at the party, tired enough to fall asleep, but the late dose meant i was waking up all night. Better than not being able to fall asleep but still made today's rest even more important.

so that's what I did. got up made waffles for Crew kid and her almost twin size friend visiting (having two 6'+ ripped athletes that are both super chill in this house was different) and then I did very little. 

And then it started to POUR. And all the roads flooded. Even I-95. Building collapsing, it is literally apocalyptic out there. Add to it the drought stress and so many trees already losing leaves and you have clogged drains and hard baked ground that isn't absorbing water and it is bad.

Really bad.

But hey we needed the rain, right?

I don't know what the process is next here for me, but it is a process and I'm working on it. 

It is september so time to move on, get a little MTB racing in, maybe think about some CX? Couple more smackdowns maybe? 

guess i should figure out what i'm making for dinner.

but maybe i'll take a nap, although i really should do some laundry, ordered some The Black Bibs and wanna wear them to see how they work tomorrow. Fit seems good, and they are cheaper than most of the other stuff out there.

I like the trend of affordable cycling gear. the Raphas and the rest have pushed kit to the limit and way past the affordability mark. That and there's very little available from the brands in stock at the shop.

I'm kind of hoping it dries out before the 18th. But i guess if it doesn't I'll figure it out then. 

for now, one last little bit of coffee to keep the headache away a little longer...

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