rewind

 Was digging up Mike F's pure sweet hell quote...

found this

https://www.gewilli.com/2015/12/vision-quest.html

I don't know that it was the Vision Quest I had hoped. 

Maybe though? I met Claire and got to know Megan, both of whom (with a few others but w/o this trip their influence wouldn't have been there and maybe I wouldn't be here now) were essential in my path to finding sobriety. 

It was a tough trip. The race? The best part of it was the photo drinking a beer on the hill in the Single speed race. There were lots of insanely dark and low moments. There were moments of absolutely high joys of gratitude.

Now, coming up on 10 years later? 

it was decidedly more net negative than positive but also important and i wouldn't be here without that experience.

but then one can say that about every experience...

we are where we are now because of what we've gone through, and it is more important what we do going forward with reflection on where we've been that demands the focus.

reflection is good, in only so much as you can use it to inform your next choice

Steph is right

And Anastasia was more of a therapist than a coach, and I needed that then and carry that through now.

I gotta go back up to a meeting with important people talking about important things and try not to eat too much more food. As always.

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