remarkable day i suppose

Nice ride in, wheel didn't break like it did yesterday. So that was nice to know the new wheel i put on has survived at least one round trip, pretty okay for being pulled out of the trash, granted with studded tires and the janky geometry of the Croll, i probably can't tell much anyway.

Really odd start, last night was super rough, set off edge and plummeted. The Introvert batteries are dead, and that means a mostly depressed emotional state. I was pretty high, doing well, after Tuesday's indoor session. Last night, shit just kind of got off the rails a bit. Keeping the sphere of influence essentially totally self contained but that's only because I'm really well practiced at that. Woke up at 2:30 super happy, awake and thinking "AWESOME that was quick, bounced back Today is gonna be a good day!" Then i realized it was 2:30 and that euphoria vanished not to return.


The focus on teaching the class has been a good distraction. Walked to the dentist today, walked down Angel. Intense sun today, walked past a sunlit porch. then at the bottom of the athletic field I'm a couple steps into the crosswalk and a car comes flying from the left, no stop for that stop sign and if i didn't have some solid self preservation instincts I would have a couple broken legs and maybe be dead from hitting the pavement or windshield. It was fucking scary, in so much as reflex managed to jump back and the front bumper of the car missed my legs as I regained my balance and re-centered by pushing off of the moving car. he stopped. looked absolutely panic'd. but then because now traffic was flowing and he had to wait his face went from panic'd apology to pissed off now i have to wait. And that didn't help.

Then of course I went from there to the dentist.

at 12:30, not having eaten any food all day, just coffee.

got back to find highest use new scope fucked up. attempt to fix that before eating. then dealt with service tech who was here fixing something else and then one of the users told HIM something else wasn't working right on a different bit of equipment but had never told ME it wasn't working right, so yeah, it was 'broken' but you can't tell the guy who's supposed to resolve the problems because that's his job?

Eat while waiting for Zeiss service to call back. click on Faceplace and see GCD's podcast with a familiar face. Well shit, i have to wait for them to call back, might as well start listening. Entertaining if still difficult, i'm not a podcast fan really, difficult for me to stay that focused on anyone's conversation for that long. But here I had to stick here and wait for call back. might as well hear what the story is and always curious how people's version of a series of familiar events differ, always interesting in a detached sociological way, what gets emphasized. And hey, learned what a Jam Rag is. So that's something new.

Zeiss still hasn't contacted me, guess they had a rash of shit break lately, or all their inside support techs are on vacation or something.

Wrote the less than positive blog here rather than fire of some cryptic tweet that i'll have to explain later, or post on facebook or meh whatever.

I'm looking forward to teaching, very excited actually, there are some amazing students signed up that I think will make it fun and will create some cool images and hey just sharing this stuff that I do with others. It is basically a volunteer position that i've added on top of an already pretty closed to maxed work load that seems not maxed when sitting here waiting for someone to call back but that scope NEEDS TO BE WORKING. And I've exhausted my extensive bag of tricks with no resolution.

And now i MIGHT be able to fix it but someone in Germany decided to put a T20H on the fastener that I need to loosen and I don't even have a torx driver here, much less a security one. Maybe I have one at home. will have to check tonight i guess.

And now it is dark.

But hey - i didn't get hit by the car, i have squeaky clean teeth, and i finally reached someone (that I contacted not the ones that were supposed to get back to me) from Zeiss (scope still broken though)...

Time to single speed it home I guess. Can't even ride no hands on this bike....  not that i do in the dark with my dim but functional headlights.

so much for staying positive - battery dead, not sure who has my jumper cables or a battery with a deep enough duty cycle to even get this one to wake up.

keep pushing, keep moving, don't let me impact others, stay positive and productive, eventually the inside will join the outside.

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Oh and JUST DISCOVERED all my rear tail lights are dead, and I don't have any AAA batteries at work. WEEEEEE


P.P.S. first no tail lights - cars fine, but cyclists riding up hill to the linear park were in my lane (wrong side) head down, no lights, I said something - they moved I recognized them.. weeee, more fun...  1 mile later two, as I call, entitled elistist more money than brains, cyclists were on the path with million lumen headlights, pointed at my eyes, Thanks assholes. I didn't want to see where i was going after you turned night time into day inside my pupils but then yeah, that was fun, glad i didn't eat shit on hidden bullshit you were hiding. Only that of course underscored the haves and have nots, hey i can HAVE a million lumen headlight, so why not? Or me= i could use one and would dim and redirect when on coming traffic is coming but yeah, i can't afford one so yeah. that's making me feel even better about my day. I'd say more but i'm sure i've said too much, like usual.