the best time to write

 is when you have no time to write

like right now

i have no time

should be doing something else

opened tabs, with the new ones, closed them all w/o more than a second or two of lingering

some closed as fast as they loaded

old content

i kind of admitted to myself that while the routine of riding to work and being here have benefits

the work itself is quite a bit more challenging

and not in a good way

stuff that used to be good and easy 

goes sideways really fast

these last two weeks have been sideways

it is a struggle

and the next two weeks don't look a whole hell of a lot better

but

hey

i'll get through it

one way or another

time for a deep dive into the stress box

it'll only be about 3 hrs of intensity

NBD or BFD said sarcastically 

can't believe i got suspended for the coach hearing me saying "what's the big fucking deal?" to two long distance team mates arguing about what kind of air force cargo plane was flying overhead... came back from the suspension and discovered i was much better suited to the 400M race was half a stride short of making it to states, probably best that i didn't make it... whatever 

shit

out of time

not that i had this time anyway

but 5 min...  we can all spare 5 min

right?

hahah

nope

fuck...

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