progress?

 Maybe...

hard to tell but honestly I have an urge to fuck it all up and go do smackdown tonight.

not just smackdown but ride home first, let the dogs out, then head back in. Extra 14 miles.

I'm not as tired but i'm still not feeling recovered but also thinking I'll skip thursday entirely. 

Of course now the long range forecast is looking like thunderstorms all day monday. Maybe I take that day off and head to the shop and do some work on the bike in prep and hopes friday works. weather eh?

Lots going on. Don't feel like sharing it all here. That is kind of a shock eh? Captain overshare here. Or at least some cryptic shit that even I don't remember what it refers to... nothing? What the hell is wrong with G?

Nothing really. Tired but not bad. Worried and overwhelmed. Trying not to get anxious or worried about how kid is doing in Camden NJ today at the races. 

Other stuff, harder to put into words. 

At least Stevil is posting some good shit this week - music videos and everything
https://allhailtheblackmarket.com/2021/07/something-to-keep-the-wheel-spinning/

Listening to some Goldfinger right now. 

Saw this meme... makes me think about my 24HOGG plans (training and logistic) 

So yeah.. everything's totally fine, good plan ya formed there in Dec 2019 GeWilli, really solid plan.

Best get it done before I turn 50. I hear everything is even worse than those tracks look after that...

Was asked about plans for how i'm going to celebrate the day again, a couple times in a row, and guess what? I'm still me, it still made me depressed sad and grumpy thinking about it.

Awesome.

Yeah so, good job GeWilli, you just opened the trapdoor and you made yourself feel like shit with one sentence. YOU DID IT TO YOURSELF WITHOUT EVEN REALIZING IT.

Never going to get to the boss level.

Took a few good images on the SEM yesterday. 4. They were all good and I really like each one but the last one? The best. Why does that happen? Start collecting images and get to the last one and be all, yup that's so good I can stop. 

I even posted them out of order and (on the nanoscape instagram) and the last one is much more popular. Tried somethjing enw, no hashtags... less reach but more direct engagement.

Maybe i wasn't actually feeling good, better at faking even myself out? 

Maybe my aching knee isn't over use and too much riding and not resting enough and is something worse like lyme? Maybe I need to rule that out...  should call doc I guess and ask professional advice. 

i mean it is the knee w/o the Bursa that I drove into the ground on the second or third ride on the Top Fuel.

Oh did I mention the crank fell off? And totally fucked up the crank arm? But i think it is okay. I hope. Don't think i can replace it anymore. 

Well the hitch is out for delivery. Maybe I'll put that on tomorrow or thursday instead of riding. And at least with the house to myself with the dogs, maybe I can trick myself into going to bed extra early and sleeping in? 

At least maybe get close to the I'm rested enough level.

or not

and so it goes

lemme see if i can hook up an air compressor and maybe check the scope settings with a different sample

Oh and the new Goldfinger album is really good.

heddwch

G