Here I am

 In seattle, well Montlake Terrace to be precise.

Dad's starting Hospice on Monday. I'm here

all the brothers and the two grandsons were in one place together

it is a lot to process to deal with

planned on racing today, didn't plan on getting up at 3:30am in RI and flying to Seattle. 

good thing i know i can go for a long time w/o sleep. 

this is different than that, i don't have all the food and hydration and coffee and everything, and it is complicated and difficult and there's the whole pull from the my mother to see her, my sister to see her baby.

no time to ride

or eat, maybe not even sleep.

got cleaned up, had a few minutes to relax, charge my phone, take a MUCH needed shower.

bike racing? nope was going to race today, signed up even. Donation to the cause.

maybe i'll be back in time  to race next weekend.

life 

it is what happens, time to soak up the moments that I can

amor fati motherfuckers

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