shy extroverted introvert

https://wizzhouse.com/an-extroverted-introvert-gives-14-real-life-examples-of-extroverted-introverts/

not great combo but explains much...

FB link...

FB triggered return to it... first PaulyB posted a twitter reply to Sachs, that fired up the response engine,

Then Myles posted about  "CX is coming" and well I said: "only CX for me we be with a wrench or a roll ot tape, lemme know if a racer/promoter needs either #hiredgun #doneracing"

further comments got this out of me: i'm just gonna be a hired gun or the drunk slow guy at the back of the SSCX races nearby RI this season... the more of the former means the less of the latter... although i'm pretty sure they are not going to be any overlaps.

then this: i could unjustly shift the blame, but it would only be to those who are making the excuses easier to make. I kind of expect to be back racing at some point, i don't see that point being anywhere w/in the next year tho.

Age group change totally completely removed any desire to line up for the Vittoria series this year. Completely.

That was the final straw in the wavering tower of jenga blocks i'm standing on.

Zero intensity and August is tomorrow. ZERO INTENSITY for MONTHS. The odd smackdown or TT (one of each in recent memory) does not make consistency. I'm slow. I can feel how out of shape I am. It is a weird and strange feeling.

I still love riding my bike, still love working on bikes. Love making them awesome for other people.

Love CX, but I'm kind of done racing for a bit. I realize how much i put into it with so little out. Nothing even close to 2013 season. Not even a race worthy of sweeping up after that season since.

Sure some of them were fun, the races, But I kind of felt better in the pits helping others than trying to flail and fail on my own recently.

I'd love to go to G-ster, but there's no goddamn way i'm signing up to race this year. Fuck. That. No. Way. September is a wash, most of October is hosed, first weekend in Nov? gone.  Zanc series has continued the shift north, adding more and more venues  further and further away, probably because that's where the venues are shifting...  and i haven't looked but I'd guess the final race in the series is, again for the ??? year going to happen when I'm not there...

and then January rolls around and everyone says fuck you all we're going home to bitch about the cold weather and snow until summer happens when we bitch about the heat and humidity.

IT WAS A GOOD EVENING...  woke up ready to go then slipped into the start of the day sucking, but not terrible, headed downhill from there then eventually turned about and got amazing and now back to .!..  ..!. for everyone

tomorrow is another day and we'll see if it the morning can deliver...

better start checking with the canadians that have hired me before...

maybe another CX wrench has too many clients and needs to hire someone else...

shrug, either way, we'll see what happens...

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HFS! late night realizations... at this rate my USAC license for 2018 may never get used... all that money ... wasted...