the creep of resurgence

Been a slow build this week.

A good build.

Referencing feeling positive and good and happy most of the time.

One lingering hook, snag, tether...  that tug from the unknown end of the line, what's on the other side of it and why is it pulling on me, best way to describe it I guess.

Asking the friend about a specific solution, was good - almost cut me free from that line that I know is attached to a really big truck tire at the bottom of the lake, but there are two lines, maybe figure out how to break free from that one helps with the other.

I'm messing with the fishing metaphor a bit, very plastic - being both on the rod side and the hook side at once. Makes sense in my mind but I see stuff in a matrix/fluid way more than normal, cryptic and confusing to others is clear to me.

The one current hook, odd.

But working to focus on the positive, that ground swell of feeling good. Talking to Tom was very helped, far more so than I could have expected, as I think I said already.

not quite enough food for lunch, but i'm not quite pedaling enough to justify eating more. Maybe I'll grab and extra beer on the way home to balance out day time calorie deficit.

This odd turn has been pleasant. And good.

Today things finally started to settle down a bit here, next week isn't looking great but at first glance still manageable. No TT last night, no smackdown on tuesday, maybe next week I'll make Smackdown. Won't be back in time from BOS/logan pickup in time for TT it looks like, but who knows maybe traffic will be less shitty than Tuesday.

Time to bust out of this place, head over to toss a few things together to get on the floor before Saturday, plenty to catch up on there.

Also I've taken to commuting more frequently in street clothes. Def not as cool and functional as bike stuff but it saves a bunch of time not having to change when I get to work. Not sure what that means though, have I slid down the rung of cyclists to just commuter? Looks that way from Strava. Back and forth back and forth...  all the same route, little diversity.

It is what it is though and it is kind of okay now.

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