No Hard Feelings

Here's the last one for the night.

In light of the day - and how it went down - listening to this reminds me maybe something that needs to be said.

I do not have any hard feelings, i have memories that are emotional, i feel wrapped up and personally invested in certain things that i shouldn't, i speak from a depth of knowledge and experience that is hard to convey and usually comes out wrong and with all the worst nuances.

I'm weird. Not normal.

An evening of cooking eating and doing nothing more than listening to this stream...  has been good.

not quite a reset but this song helped rebalance.

and makes me feel like I should really emphasize, i have no hard feelings, i am where i am and have what i have from the journey. This mountain bike stuff is pretty awesome...  the work is crazy and only frustrating because i'm involved with so many amazing projects and my failing lets others down, but mostly myself.

Lotta words today eh? Hobby blogger motherfuckers...

i'll figure this shit out... once I stop bouncing at the bottom, or roll to a stop... i'll pick that fucking rock back up and trudge back up the hill. Maybe i'll make it a little farther next time before getting knocked down.

Amor Fati Motherfuckers

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