The Washington Post: A common artificial sweetener might be making you fatter and sicker, a new study says.
Shocked (no not really).
Y'all still washing your hands?
Cloud of uncertainty has just kicked up to the zero visibility level.
I was still pretty wrecked on the bike yesterday from Tuesday's ride.
Back in my photo taking bullshit:
(damn that looks good - had to post og size ... sorry)
Feels good a bit... riding in w/o stuff in my hears helps my eyes and now that I can take a photo my photo taking part of the brain is waking back up...
Worried a bit is an understatement.
Worried both that it will get worse, worried that it won't and we'll be right back on our bullshit that got us here in the first place and we won't learn anything.
Teaching a completely hands on practical course that suddenly has to go remote. Can you teach someone a physical skill w/o giving the tools to use? I don't care how many or how good the videos are, if you don't have a violin in your hand they could be the best by you'll never learn how to play w/o actually putting your fingers on the strings and drawing the bow.
On line learning means nothing w/o real life applications to practice with. Somethings work well for online but often they are still intertwined with life/job/something.
Working through this and the other monster news that I can't talk about supposedly until the 1st of April, and juggling/helping with everyone's anxiety and fears and concerns, holding all my own in, not wanting to burden those around me, it is a bit of a struggle. But someone has to do this for them. I'm good at packing it all in.
Chip posted some bullshit about complaining just re-wires your brain. To be very clear and honest, in person, in practice, face to face, I work incredibly hard to keep words and phrases positive. Often pausing mid-sentence to rephrase. It makes me think, it is a good exercise. I've found that practicing this really makes me aware of how just absolutely negative the phrasing and culture is. I'm not talking hippie bullshit that the snowflakes are concerned about, that's just common humanity, I'm talking even the most woke inclusive hip motherfucker still is more likely to use negative toned phrasing than positive.
I haven't been sleeping well lately, but better than when i was drinking. I'm tired, drinking too much coffee but better off than I have been physically in a long while. I think my riding is going better, the MTB stuff is helping, not riding the e-bike, riding the singlespeed only all the time. Overgeared and everything. Even slowly. Esp slowly, but then every once in a while just riding the opposite.
Totally wanting to race the EFTA series, do all of them. But then thinking maybe I should just pick one or two races in the different series, try em out, just ride the MTB more than race it. Don't make the racing the focus. Figure stuff out. maybe the XC will be boring. Smooth trails def are boring unless on the CX bike. Rocks are fucking a blast now, the more technical the better. Maybe the headbangers is where i'll have more fun. Or the Marathons? I mean I sure as hell like to ride my bike all fucking day and longer. Or singlespeed MTB? Haven't done that in a while and yeah, you know, I signed up for a 24 hour single speed MTB race. So how about fuckitall in one. Probably should try some SSMTB before then anyway. Gonna need to get a stack of cogs and an elliptical chainring (34T of course).
Should head home. Meant to do that 20 min ago. Started writing instead. And then since my door is open, got a few questions while writing.
So yeah, my brain has been packed, the only time to full escape has been on the Mountain bike.
On the road I haven't been able to full escape. Even sometimes on the MTB i think too much, but then I usually fuck up the line and get pissed and re-focus.
Maybe there will be more shit to take a photo of on the way home tonight. overwhelm the whole instagram (head there to see the other B&W images).
y'all be good, take care of each other,
and wash
your
fucking
hands
Amor Fati Motherfuckers
heddwch
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