you know that thing

where you know you shouldn't because you've been around long enough to accurately predict your emotional reaction but you still go ahead and do it anyway?

And you do it and sure 'nuf exactly how you thought you were going to feel is how you are feeling?

And then you tweet a reply to the comment that pushed you over the edge to listen even though you'd manage to successfully and then have Bill say exactly the correct thing but for likely the absolutely wrong reasons and make it worse than then you tweet back and then delete all the tweets.

Decryptic paragraph right there. And NO I don't do the podcast things other than emprical cycling. Right now I can't even get myself to listen to audiobooks like I have been doing other stuff. Just can't. Yet I somehow started listening while getting ready to go this morning. loaded it up on the phone, carried the phone and the external battery around with me all over the house then stuffing the phone and the external batter with the headphone in my ears and rode to work and timing wise? took me that long to get ready and pedal.

Hey there was some good to come out of it. I was entertained and more importantly was distracted from really appreciating how warm and gorgeous it was outside. I don't even remember what direction the wind was blowing to be honest. It normally is one of those days I'd get in and want to check in on everything, deal with emergencies and head back out and find someone to chase up Tower Hill and get back in time for lunch.

Didn't even bring a jacket to work. no gloves, still overheating. And sunny, and actually feeling pretty good on the bike inspite of not sleeping well.

Probably good I don't have a woop dee doop or bitty fit thing or whatnot to tell me how shitty i slept, i can accurately predict my reaction and still ignore it.

I guess in a way today picked up right where i left off, by making stupid mistakes.

and damnit Co-Star is WAY too on the money -no i not my thing but i saw the IG stuff posted by Finch L once and whatever maybe i look now and then.

AND ANOTHER MISTAKE - hey we're here for the training session...  um what?

guess who didn't book the scope and someone else signed up already?

it did seem odd that I hadn't scheduled a session this morning - everyone else seems to be taking my fuckups WAY better than I am. except the food/dinner thing last night - the kid is as pissed about it as I am.

One fun thing, if I eat with a smaller than normal spoon (i usually prefer spoons that can double as 1/4 cup measurers - aka I'm ginormous) aka teaspoon size my mustache stays WAY cleaner.

Well, maybe the forecast will be wrong and it won't start raining until after I'm home tonight.

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