unexpected and delightful side effect

if anything can be a delight in this funk...

delightful may be a literary hook, a complete and total exaggeration probably...

so i should go back and edit out the and delightful but whatever

it was windy this morning again... headwind mostly, Daffs are up, the simple heritage variety from Wales my dad had growing in MD are blooming. Well some of them are. The ones i put up front. May just need to move the others - I think they are popping up veggie stuff but not reproductive flower stuff...

5 years of them blooming. Put em in back in '14 when we moved em out of the house down there.

Then I drove with my dad out to CO, had big plans to talk with my dad on the drive about stuff, we kind of just sat in the truck and appreciated the geography of this big ol diverse country.

Ohio down there near Dayton is certainly the flattest section of highway until you get to Colorado and the plains before the front range.


Funny, this song just started in on the playlist....

I got thinking about it all - timing was good, I got to hang out with my dad before the first decline, then headed out for a week with my brothers before the second precipitous one... then the visit last spring before he broke his arm and took another turn for the worst.

There's a complicated mess out there right now, my brothers and myself, we're all kind of the same, similar strengths and weaknesses, I'm by good measure the stupid one, the least socially adept, most awkward, no gifts. The two out there have a lot of work that has to be done in person, keep your shit in order folks.

I've toned down the level of mistakes today, back to almost normal, can't shake the cloud, the funk, the feeling. But is is kind of cool not knowing what happened with the politics crap, not hearing about Covid-19 or seeing more empty shelves of useless* hand sanitizer or complaints about people wearing masks that have no idea why they need them or what they for. One that wasn't from that place, person wearing mask stopped, removed mask (improperly and unsanitarily) and coughed into their elbow then put the mask back on... awesome... the only significant utility of the fucking mask is to capture shit coming OUT OF YOU. It does dickall for dealing with stuff coming in. Okay fine, it does a LITTLE bit of good, but really not much, and is very poor at preventing getting infected. A properly fitted mask is good at keeping whatever you have inside you. AKA the exhaust ports on your fucking face.

I'm still in a fucking bad mood i guess.

Why are people so dumb, and at the same time why do they think they know everything. Yeah thanks for handing me that mirror.

I guess the side effect is that there's no new outrage to push the last one out. but that one kind of sucked on many intertwined levels. Best load up on coffee - pull my socks up, punch the wall, take a deep breath and move forward.

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